Emotions all around

“What do you mean you want to go home? Do you want to leave me?” John said sadly.

 “No John I don’t want to leave you I really don’t but you have to understand I miss my family so much and I’m so sick and tired of this stinking place it’s not funny.” She told him as the tears were still falling.

Still kneeling he put his hand on her cheek and said, “Sweetie I can understand that really I do and you’ll be going home in a few days right? But I want you to come back I know it’s selfish of me but I’ll miss you like hell if you didn’t and well I’m...(John started to choke up) I’m not ready to give up just yet.” He told her as he took her hand and kissed it.    

“No it’s not selfish of you because I don’t want to leave you either John. I was thinking how the hell when this program ends how I could extend this thing by coming up with maybe an aneurysm or something.” She said smiling. That even made John laugh and the both of them got into a fit of giggles.

As they were laughing Marsha walked in with Dr. Chan.  “Well it looks like John put you in a better mood. Dr. Chan has some good news for you.” Marsha told her.

“Oh whoopee!” she whispered to John. He just gave her a dirty look.                                                                  

 “Yes Ellie if you promise especially when you are home for the next two weeks and I’ll know because I’ll be in contact with your parents that if you do everything on this list we’ll let you go home. You need to stay hydrated and to eat regularly. And salt must be in your diet I know that sounds strange but with you it will help raise your blood pressure and help your fainting spells otherwise we’ll have to put you on salt pills. We are going to put you on iron so Marsha will get you those before you leave today. Stay on schedule with everything and when you get back we’ll check you to make sure everything went well. Now Marsha if you come with me we’ll get her paperwork and her meds set and make an appointment for when she gets back. Ellie you can get dressed and when Marsha gets back you all can go.” Dr. Chan told them.

When they left Ellie just looked at John and asked him, “So what was the dirty look for?”

“Oh that you were acting like a smartass. What if they heard you?” John asked her.

“Oh please what the hell do I care? I just want to get the hell out of here.” She told him getting annoyed again.

“Are you going to start swearing again? Because that’s so attractive on you.” He said sarcastically.

“Isn’t that the pot calling the kettle black mister?” she asked him.

“No you don’t guys are supposed to swear nice little girls aren’t.” he told her tapping her nose.

“Bite me!” she told him.

“Where?” he said smiling.

“Look I know I swear a lot ok? I just try not to around my folks and if I do I don’t use the “F” word. In fact none of us do and that includes Daddy. Mommy doesn’t like it so nobody but nobody says it in front of her got it! And I’II try only to say hell and damn in front of them. Maybe when I get older I might but right now that’s all I say. We don’t want to get into trouble. But I’m not home so there you go!” she told him.

“Well why don’t you pretend and act like the nice little girl that I met.” He asked her making a kissy face at her.

“Well why don’t you take that statement and shove it up your cute little ass.” She told him right back.

John just stood there and couldn’t believe the girl he was falling in love with had a mouth on her and that he never heard it before this. In fact he really didn’t know that much apparently about her as she didn’t know that much about him. “Are you mad at me?” he asked her shocked.

She looked at him as she started to get out of the wheelchair. John went to help her and took her arm. She looked him in the eyes and said. “Yes and no.” she told him.

Wrapping his arms around her, “Then could you please tell me what I did because I’m a guy and I don’t always get things.” He told her as he then gave her a little kiss on her lips.

Making a sad face she looked up at him, “Because you think I’m Miss Little Goodgirl. Never does anything wrong, does what she’s told, oh and let’s not forget she’s sick so we have to be extra careful with her. I thought you were different but I guess I was wrong. The second you stepped foot in this place and saw what I go thru BOOM! They got to you too.” She told him sticking her head into his chest.

John started to rub her back and was smiling. Then kissing her on top of her head, “Hey they didn’t get to me ok? And I’m sorry for teasing you about the swearing but it just threw me off guard that’s all. I mean I’ve heard you swear before but not like this and it was just well it was funny ok. Forgive me?” he asked her.

Looking up at him she gave him a smile and he couldn’t help himself and leaned down and kissed her as if his life depended on it. She was taken aback by this and her heart was pounding a mile a minute.

When they separated she told him, “You know if they took my blood pressure right now I think they would be very happy.”

“Why?” he asked.

“Because for the first time since I’ve been in here I think it’s finally high.” she said smiling.

“Come on you need to get dress so we can get you out of here. Where are your closes?” he asked her. She told him they were in the closet and he went and got them for her. “Do you need help?” he asked her.

“I don’t think so but you probably shouldn’t go anywhere. Um if you don’t mind you could stand guard so I can get dressed right here in case I feel faint you know that way I won’t hurt myself.” She asked him shyly. He smiled as he told her that he wouldn’t go anywhere. She took off the little robe they gave her then John helped her untie the back of the johnnie she was wearing. He helped her slip it off as she stood there in nothing but her panties. She went and picked up her bra off the bed as John just tried so hard not to stare at her the way he did that night they shared together. He loved the way she looked, her cute body, the way her body curved and as he was standing there he didn’t hear her when she was asking him to help her.

“John? John!” she said loudly.

“Huh? Oh what Baby, I’m sorry.” He said apologetic.

“Are you alright?” she asked him while trying to hold her bra in place.

“Yeah I’m fine, you need me to fasten that?” he asked.

“Yes please.” She said as she turned around still only standing in her panties and now bra. John just kept praying that he wouldn’t show just how aroused he was because he didn’t want to get caught by Marsha in this state.

“There how’s that?” he asked her secretly wanting to throw her on that bed and too well…oh he had to get those thoughts out of his head and fast.

“Great thank you.” She said as she grabbed her jeans and put them on then her shirt. John sighed a big sigh of relief as she reached for her sneakers. It didn’t take long after that for Marsha to come back with the paperwork for her release and they were out the door.    

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Once they got home Marsha got them settle out in the back yard. After they were alone John got up and went to Ellie and told her to move so he could get behind her so she could sit in front of him on the lounge chair. This way he could wrap his arms around her. He started chuckling and she looked up and behind her and asked, “What’s so funny?”

“You, you nearly killed me back there at the hospital when you were changing. I thought I was going to die when you were standing there in your underwear Babe you were so beautiful all I wanted to do was throw you down on the bed and well you know.” He told her as he kissed the top of her head.

Smiling, “I thought you said everything was ok. If I didn’t think you couldn’t have handled it I would have changed in the bathroom.” She told him as she gave him a little smirk but she didn’t know if he saw it or not.

John thought for a moment then it dawn on him, “Wait just a second. Did you freaking change in front of me on purpose?” he asked her a little shocked.

Shocked that he would even ask such a question she answered back, “I’m shocked that you would accuse me of such a thing John. I’m a good girl remember?” she said giggling.

“Yeah right.” He said as he started to tickle her.

“John No! Stop please! Cut it out!” she kept yelling as she was trying to wiggle out of his grip. But it was no use. He was enjoying this too much.

“Say Uncle! No better yet say Master!” John told her.

“Are freaking kidding me! Come on please stop!” she yelled again begging him.

“Nope say it,” he said laughing.

“Fine Master! Master! Now stop!” she yelled as tears were running down her cheeks. John finally stopped and hugged her tight as she asked him, “What the hell is it with you guys and the word Master. Are you a big I Dream of Jeannie fan or something?” she asked him still breathing hard.

Laughing he put his lips to her ear and whispered, “You’ll find out soon enough.” She looked at him strangely trying hard to get what he just said to her. So he said to her, “Well you did tell me not to make fun of you when you didn’t get things didn’t you?” as he was smirking at her.

“Yeah…” was all she said as she was wrecking her brain trying to figure out what he was trying to imply. What the hell did that have to do with anything with sex? John knew she was having a hard time trying to figure this out and now understood why she asked him not to make fun of her, this was just to priceless. But what made matters worse he was picturing her in Jeannie’s outfit. Oh God this is not good. Suddenly Ellie could feel John’s happiness underneath her.  “John I give up and I know it means something well you because well you know you’re kind of well…” she was really trying to get the words out.

“Yeah I know, I’m sorry Ellie but when you said I Dream of Jeannie I kind of pictured you in her outfit.” He told her as he started to blush.

“You did what?” she asked him and as she did that BINGO! The lights came on and she realized what he meant by his statement. “Ohhh I get it now John Francis!” she squealed to him.

Laughing now, “Well it took you long enough. Now come here.” He told her as she leaned in on his lap very carefully and he kissed her like he was making an imprint of it. He wasn’t going to let himself forgot how she kissed, how she tasted or how she felt because she was going to be gone for two weeks. “God you’re killing me you know that right?” he said to her as he held her tight.

Tucking her face into his neck, “I love you too.” She told him.

“Are you staying home the next two days or going back to the clinic I forgot to ask.” John asked her.

“Nope staying here then on Friday the car is picking me up in the afternoon and taking me to the airport why?” she asked him.

“Oh no reason I just have this hot chick I want to see and I want to make sure she’s going to be in her adopted home before she leaves me for a while.” He said smiling.

“Wow you got two girls leaving on Friday. Yeah I guess I’d pick the hot one too.” She said making a face.

“Oh ha ha very funny. When you get back I am so going to teach you a lesson young lady.” He whispered in her ear as his lips just dusted them just perfectly so it gave her a shiver down her spine. Chuckling, “You ok Baby?”

“Huh? Yeah, yeah fine. Don't do that! Jeepers Marsha’s right in the house John. “she told him all hot and bothered as he just laughed at her. “And what did you mean by that comment?” she asked him.

“I’ll tell you when you get back and show you also ok? So let’s just leave it at that. It will give you something to look forward to when you get back.” He told her hugging her tight.

“Fine but um when can we have time together like we had that night other night?” she asked shyly.

“You liked that Huh? Well I can tell you Ellie honestly that was the best night in my life. I just wish I could wake up with you every morning.” He told her kind of staring off into the distant and stroking her leg.  “When you get back I’ll try and arrange something again so we can be together I promise.” He told her wanting that just as much as she did. 

“Yeah that would be great just you and me again.” She said snuggling into him.  He just smiled as he had a little bit more in mind but he would get into that later. He’s hoping that when she gets back that she’ll be on the same page as he is. He knows he’s a little bit more sexually active than she is and he doesn’t want to scare her off but he does feel it’s getting time for them because he’s trying so hard to stay loyal to her and it’s been months since he’s had sex with anyone.

They were together for the last couple of days just hanging out much to the chagrin of his parents. Marsha would take the kids to the park so they could get some alone time in knowing that they wouldn’t see each other for a while even thou Michael told her not to take her eyes off of them. They just mainly kissed and cuddled knowing they couldn’t do much more but it was driving John nuts that he couldn’t do more than that. He so wanted to really hold her and touch her and say goodbye to her the way he wanted too. And on this day Thursday he brought over a special gift with him.

“You didn’t have to get me anything silly.” She told him all excited.  

“Yes I did you’re turning seventeen next week and I won’t be there so Happy Birthday Baby.” He said as he kissed her lovingly.

Trying not to cry when they separated, “Oh John Thank You.”  She told him as she started to open it.

Standing there anxiously waiting for her to open it he was ready split in two. When she unwrapped the box and then started to open the box she let out a gasp. There sitting in the box in cotton was a beautiful pin in rhinestones that said Elvis.  She just started at it like it was a million dollars. He wasn’t even sure if she was breathing. “Ellie? Ellie do you like it? Are you ok? Talk to me Babe.” He said concerned.

Looking up at him there was tears in her eyes, “John it’s beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Where did you get this?” she asked him.

“I have my ways. So I take it you really like it then?” he asked her smiling.

“Uh Huh, I can’t wait to show Marsha and Michael, oh and my parents and my brothers and sister.” She started to ramble.

“Ok I get it, how did I know you were going to like this.” he said laughing.

“Stop. You know you really didn’t have to get me anything.” She said to him as she wrapped her arms around him.

“OH yeah right not get my girlfriend anything for her birthday that would have gone over big.” He told her smiling and then laying another kiss on her. This kept going on until Marsha came home from the park with the kids. Ellie was so excited about the pin she couldn’t help but show it off to her. John was so glad he made the right choice. To see her face light up when he gave her that was everything.

Marsha hated to bring down her mood but she knew she had to. She had to remind Ellie to make sure that her bags were packed with everything that she needed so Michael could have it ready to get it in the car for tomorrow so they can head out to the airport. “I’m all set Marsha I finished this morning.” She told her.

John went out and brought take out back to the house so they could eat dinner together one last time before she left. Nothing special just hamburgers from his favorite take out spot. Michael and Marsha left them alone on the patio most of the night but it was killing Carol that she couldn’t see them the way the patio was situated. John Sr. told her to never mind and to leave it and that he should be home shortly. It had killed her too that he had spent the last few days with her over there but hopefully things would change in the next two weeks.  With things getting really late around midnight John told her goodnight and went home.

When he walked in quietly he was met by his Mom who was still up. “Well you decided to finally come home.” She said to him not so nicely.

John winced and really didn’t want to get into right now with her. “Yes Mom I finally came home. Funny it’s earlier than I’m used to but I’m home.” He shot back at her.

“What did I say about being a smartass.” She told him.

“I’m not I’m just answering your question Mar. Can we not do this please? I’m tired and I want to see Ellie off tomorrow so can I just go up to my room ok?” he asked her tiredly.

“Fine go I’ll be right up myself.” Carol told him. He quickly ran upstairs not wanting to get into anymore with her and shut his door. Carol locked up and just prayed that everything would work out the way she wanted and that he would eventually understand if he ever found out. It was for his own good only because she knew his potential and that he would be what he wanted to be.  

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Friday came and the kids woke Ellie up by running in her room and jumping on her bed. They wanted to spend the morning with her so Marsha had made breakfast for the four of them so they could go to the park. They stayed there for a couple of hours and finally came home around noon time. When they got home sitting on the porch waiting for them was John. The kids were the first ones to run to him and he happily greeted them back. John was great with them and Marsha was always grateful for that but she knew the two of them wanted to spend what little time they had before Michael got home early to take Ellie to the airport. She hustled the kids into the house and John and Ellie went out back to their usual spot out back.

“So I haven’t told you this but my folks are making me get a day job and they want me to pay rent. They said they believe in me but want me to have something else that makes quote “real money” unquote.” He told her using his hand jesters.

Ellie didn’t want to seem unsupportive but she had to say something, “John I do understand what they’re saying thou.” Was all she got out before he looked at her with a shocked look on his face.

“Ellie what the Hell! It’s going to be a Bitch as it is trying to do both when I come in at two to three a.m. then have to get up at God only knows and stay at whatever time and run to my gigs!” he jumped down her throat without listening to her.

“John! Stop it! You can’t tell me something and not get my opinion on it. You do it to me to you know.” She shot back at him.

John sat there and felt bad that he had yelled at her. “I’m sorry your right. But they didn’t even hear me out.” He grumbled.

“Well that wasn’t right. But I do see they’re point. I know my parents are doing the same thing John. Right now Joey is working down the mall in one of the restaurants and he’s paying board and Daddy’s putting it away. I know your’s is a different case but for them it’s the same because they are trying to teach you responsibility. Unfortunately your just seeing it as getting in your way of your dreams.” She tried to explain to him.

He looked at her intently, “How the hell did you get so wise?” he said to her giving her one of his snide little smiles.

“I fell in love with you didn’t I?” she told him giving him a smile rather bigger right back.

“Smartass.” He shot back as he then started to laugh.

“I’ve been called worse.” She laughed back.

“I so don’t want you to go.” He finally said to her.

“Yeah I know neither do I but hopefully the next two weeks will go by fast.” She really hoped.

Before they knew it Michael was home and it was time for her to leave. She said her goodbye’s to the kids and to Marsha. But her goodbye to John were killing them both. They basically had kissed the way they had wanted before Michael got there but John was able to kiss her tenderly before she got into the car. Marsha gave Michael strict instructions to make sure he left after she got on the plane and that she would be fine. Jon straggled home and as Carol tried to talk to him he just went up to his room. He picked out what he was going to wear for tonight and then he jumped into the shower. When he got out Carol was just leaving Matty’s room as John was exiting the bath room.

“Oh dear where are you going tonight?” she asked him.

“Oh I have an audition at The Fast Lane tonight. I thought I told you and Dad that? Anyway I think I have a good chance at getting the lead singer gig.” He told her as he was heading to his bedroom.

“Well isn’t that wonderful. Did Ellie know that?” she asked him.

Turning around with an annoyed look on his face, “Oh course she knows why?” he wanted to know.

“Well she’s gone and now you’re going out and auditioning that’s all I just found it a little strange that’s all dear.” She told him. John wanted to say something to his Mom but decided against it and shocked his head and walked into his room and closed his door as she heard him lock his door. Carol just huffed but went downstairs quickly to make a phone call. It didn’t take long the person on the other end to pick up.

“So glad you picked up. John is going to The Fast Lane tonight and he’s auditioning for some band he wants into. I’m sure he’ll be hanging around some. Be there to put our plan into action. Ellie left this afternoon so he’s all your’s. Just don’t screw it up this time. I put too much time into you Dotty.” Carol told her.

“I won’t Mrs. B.” Dorothea told her.

  

Misunderstanding's

A couple of days had gone by and they only had spoken on the phone. John thought it would be a good idea only because it gave Michael a chance to calm down some. Ellie told him what her father told him and that it was ok to still see him and John told her that his father told him the same but facing Michael would still be uncomfortable. He wanted to still give it a few days for him to calm down some.

“Well I have to say I’m surprised that your parents are letting you still see me after what happened.” He told her.

“Well crying hysterically over the phone helped I think. But they want to talk more in debt about it when I get home so…I’m in for the talk which they’ve ignored for almost seventeen years. I still don’t think Joey has had the talk and had he’s had sex.” She told him.

“Wait a minute you told me he’s done things but you didn’t tell me that he’s actually did it?’ John said shocked.

“Yeah I know but since he grown a foot, foot and a half and now looks like a model or as my Aunt Marg says a movie star all the girls don’t stop calling the house. Even the ones who use to bully him. Those are the ones I tell him to fuck and run.” She said and was laughing.

“Ellie! I don’t believe you just said that! I really didn’t know you had that mean streak in you.” John told her in shock.

“Yeah well never hurt someone I love then. Believe me I could be either a great cop slash detective or a great master criminal take your pick. And when I lie I cover my bases. I’ve got four siblings that prove it. Because I never got caught and they would take the blame for me. Especially the two younger ones because Daddy wouldn’t punish them like he would Joe or I we’re the oldest so we should have known better so we would of gotten it they wouldn’t have.” She told him.   

“Yeah I know the feeling. But I didn’t know you were that sneaky.” He said to her thinking of all the beatings he and Tony would get.

“John are you ok you sound really weird. You know you never told me about how you guys were punished. I’ve told you.” She said to him concerned.

There was a long pause then finally he answered her. “You know Babe I have to go. I’ll call you later ok. I need to get to rehearsal I’m looking at a few new guitarist and drummers ok Love You bye.” And he hung up.

Ellie stared at the phone and thought to herself how could he have a rehearsal if he didn’t have a band. Something was up and she was going to find out but first she was going to talk to Michael and Marsha so she could see John instead of talking on the phone. She was going to wait for Michael to get home so they could discuss this over dinner. Yeah that sounded like a good idea.

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John didn’t want to get into his relationship with her about the punishments with her. He loved his folks but it was hard for people to understand that it still continued til today. Sometimes he even took the blame so his brothers wouldn’t have to take them. As the oldest he felt that was his job the same as she did. Maybe that’s what drew them together. Maybe that’s why he felt the way he did for her. What he didn’t understand was she already knew one of his darkest secrets so why was this one so hard? I’ll tell her I don’t want to keep secrets from her just not right now.

John went to The Stone Pony to interview new members of the new group he was trying so hard to get going. It was ok for him to be there seeing it was in the afternoon and they weren’t legally open and serving liquor.  He wanted to scream because so far there wasn’t anyone decent that had come in. And Jimmy one of the bouncers had reminded him that he had to be out by seven before the crowds started coming in and the paying entertainment went on. John told him that he would be but that he would be back with a vengeance. Jimmy told him that he had no doubt about that. After he was finish he didn’t feel like going home so he went to find his friends so he went to their regular hangout which was a place that he hadn’t taken Ellie to yet. It was this dive really but most of the kids hung out there and he hadn’t been there in a few weeks so he wanted to see what was up. When he walked into Zack’s Place everyone looked at him and then started to whisper. He just shooked his head and walked over to the bar.

“Hey Betty how are you?” he asked her as she was one of the bar tenders there.

“Johnny long time Honey where have you been?” she asked him.

“Try to get another band started the other guys left me high and dry. You know either left with their folks on vacation or just felt that we weren’t going anywhere.” He told the pretty brunette who was I her late twenties.

“Really I heard you got a cutie of your own. Been with her all this time. Should I be jealous?” she asked him flirting as always.

“Now Betty would I do that to you? But can I ask how did you hear this? I mean I never brought her down here.” John told her.

“Oh come on now, you know how small this town is John. And I give you five bucks on who told me.” She said sarcasticly.

“Never mind I know Dotty. Yeah I’m seeing a great girl and her name is Ellie.” He told her smiling.

“Well don’t tell me that you’re in love?” she asked him smiling back at him.

“Look Betty can we just keep this between us right now I don’t want this all over Jersey ok. It really has a lot to do with Ellie; Dotty has it out for her.” John explained to her.

“Oh sure Hon no problem so what can I get you a beer?” she asked him.

“Yeah that would be great.” He said. She got him his beer and a coke and he went over to a table where he saw his friends Dave Sabo, Dave Rashbaum, Tommy Swift.

“Hey John how are doing man.” Dave Rashbaum asked him.

“Doing the best I can. Right now trying to get another band started.” He told them as he took a swig of his beer.

“I see they gave you a soda too huh?” Dave Sabo noticed that John had one too.

“Ok Sab I told you this before they give you guys those in case the cops come in here for you under aged brats. You see that trash can you’ll chug a lug then dump the cups in there. Can you try to understand simple instructions or should I go slower?” Tommy asked him making lip motion movements with his hand as he was talking.  

Well this set off John and Dave R. into a fit of laughter. While Dave S. didn’t find it very funny at all but before he tried anything John just held him down and shooked his head no. Once everything calmed down Tommy asked John about trying to put this band thing together and he listen. Then he suggested that he come over to the Fast Lane Friday night because his band The Rest was playing there and right their keyboard player was filling in as a singer.

“Yeah here just give this to the guy and if not just tell them to ask for me or Jack ok. Come about six p.m. we’ll do a couple of songs and if Jack likes you you’re in. But the way these two were telling me before you even came if you’re that good you’re in.” Tommy told him.

John was so excited they all talked shop until a few of the regular girls came over to sit with the guys. They were feeling no pain about then and Dave S. and Tommy knew the girls from the clubs. John and Dave R. recognized them but never had any run ins with them. They introduced them to the girls and this one blonde had eyes for John. She was all over John and he seemed very uncomfortable for the first time in a long time that a beautiful woman was paying attention to him. But he played along only because he didn’t want the others teasing him. They stayed until closing and Cheri was now sitting on John’s lap. The girls got up to go to the little girl’s room while the guys were paying the bill.

“Hey Dave R. do you have a ride home?” John asked him.

“Um hang on a sec Sab was going to take me home but it looks like he has other ideas now.” Dave R. told John. He went off to ask Sabo while he waited. Tommy had already took off with two of the girls about forty-five minutes earlier. The three other girls were walking back as Cheri sat back down next to John.

“So Johnny what do you say we go back to my place and I’ll get you another drink and maybe something else.” She told him as her hand was rubbing up and down his leg.

John had to now tell her how he felt and that he was no way in hell going back to her place. Grabbing her to stop her from touching him, “Cheri you can knock it off now.” He told her in a not so nice voice.

“What’s the hell I thought we were having a good time?” she asked him confused.

“Look I appreciate the attention but if you were doing it for saving face in front of your girlfriends I’m done. I saw you guys talking before you came over here. Plus Sabo told me what you had in mind. Now I did Sab the favor so he could go out with your friend I have a girlfriend so if you don’t mind.” John explained to her.

“You’re piece of shit you know that. Fine you know Dotty was so right about you Bongiovi.” Cheri told him as she got up and walked away from him.

John heard chuckling behind him, turning around he saw Dave R. standing there. “You know Jon you really have a way with women.” He told him as John gave him the finger.

“Come on if you still want that ride asshole.” John told him.

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The next day John tried calling Ellie but there was no answer at the Levine’s so he tried looking over to see if there were any cars over there. There weren’t. He wondered where everyone could have gone. He couldn’t remember if it was one of her days at the clinic. So he practiced some of the songs he was going to play for Jack Ponti when his Dad knocked on his door.

“John I need to talk to you.” John Sr. told him.

“Sure what can I do for you?” he asked him.

“Well your mother and I were taking and we feel that we let you go long enough living here and not paying rent. You’re old enough now that you can get job.” He told his son.

John just looked at his Dad and didn’t know what to say. He sat up straight, “But Pop I have an audition in a few days for this band as lead singer, and there’s a good chance that I’ll get it.” He told his Dad proudly.

John Sr. stood there happy that John was starting to seem to get somewhere with this but how long would this one last. “That’s great John really it is but as your Mother and I were talking we think you need something a little more substantial. Something in the day then you can do your music at night. “ he explained to him.

John really thought he was hearing things. “But Dad you know when I was doing this in school I was sleeping thru half my classes. I’d be doing the same thing if I worked.” He told his dad.

“Well then you better come home right after you finish with the gigs then and get a good night’s sleep so you don’t because this is what’s going to happen seeing that you’re not going to college.” He said sternly.

“But Dad!” he exclaimed.

“I’m sorry John but this is what your Mother and I have come up with. You have til September first to get a job or you’re not playing in anymore bands until you do.” John Sr. commanded.

John couldn’t get anything else out he was too overwhelmed at that moment. John Sr. told him that he should think about what they just talked about and that he should let it settle and think of what he could be good at other than playing the guitar and singing. John actually felt like crying but he wasn’t going to show his dad of all people. He didn’t come out of his room the rest of the day and Carol was getting nervous. But John told her to let him lie and that he had a lot of thinking to do. She knew he had a temper like both of them did but she also knew he would never use it on them. The consequences would be too severe.

Finally around four-thirty he heard car pull up so he looked out his window and saw Marsha’s car parking in her driveway. Smiling he really needed to talk with Ellie but just then as Marsha got out he noticed she was the only one. Was he seeing this right? Was Ellie home all this time and he didn’t know it? He threw his sneakers on and ran downstairs where his Mother caught him before he was able to get out of the house.

“Hold it right there young man where do you think you’re going?” Carol asked him.

Holding it together he turned around, “I’m going to see Ellie why?” he said snarky.

“Don't speak to me in that tone. You haven’t been out of your room all day but she comes home and you’re out the door?” his mother questioned.

“Well yeah because she doesn’t question me.” Again he said with a tone in his voice.

“You know you’re still not that old for me to put you over my knee.” She told him.

Looking her dead in the eyes, “And you do Mom and I’ll be out of here so fast just remember that. That also goes if Pop cuts my hair anymore. I love you guys but I won’t take those punishments anymore. I’ll get the job til I’m eighteen then I’m out of here. Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going over to see Ellie.” And he went out the door.

Carol just stood there as John Sr. walked in. “Did I hear him right?” John asked his wife.

“Yes you did. He believes he’s a man now.” Carol said in shock.

“Well Dear he is. She’s leaving in a few days and he’ll probably start at the Pony. I’m sure they’ll hire him he is that good. So you know what to do.” He told his wife as she stood there shaking her head yes.

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John went next door and waited til someone answered the door. Finally Marsha did and was surprised actually to find John standing there. “John Hi I’m surprised to see you?” she told him.

Confused he asked, “Why? You did say that Ellie and I could see each other right?”

“Yes, yes of course but Ellie thought with what happened and you not seeing her the last two days well she just thought maybe you wanted to cool it for a while.” Marsha told him. “Why don’t you come on in so we can talk.” She told him.

He entered the house wondering what was going on and why Ellie would think he would want to cool it for a while. Once he sat down on the couch Marsha asked him why he hadn’t called her in the last few days.

“Well I was trying to get a band together but I failed miserably. Everybody that I know is either gone for the summer or is getting ready to go off to college. But last night I got lucky and a friend of mine said that the band that he was in lost their lead singer and needed a new one so Friday night I’m going to audition for it. I think I have a good chance to.” He explained to her as she listened intently. “Marsha is Ellie here?” he wanted to know.

“Well that’s the problem John no she’s not. Yesterday she tried to blow off what she said was one of her everyday headaches. But I’m getting pretty good to be able to tell when she’s lying to me. She gets really pale and really quiet on me.” She told him.

“Plus her eyes get grey.” He told her.

“What?” Marsha asked him.

“Her eyes…they get grey when she doesn’t feel good.” He told her again looking really concerned now.

Marsha smiled knowing only someone in love would know that. “Well anyway she didn’t think that when you weren’t calling and the way you ended your last phone call with her that you were upset with her for some reason. “ she told him.

“NO! God no why would she think that?” he asked her really having no idea why Ellie would think that.

“You don’t remember your conversation of a few days ago?” Marsha asked him.

“Of course I do it’s not like we had a fight. We ended our conversation like we always do with us saying I love you. So why would she think it ended on a bad note?” he asked her.

“Because John you’re a guy. And she obviously read something else into it. Which in turn festered in her little brain and cause her to over think it. Made herself sick. Anyway yesterday she finally couldn’t take the pain and fessed up so I call her doctor who told me to get her in there right away. So I called Abby to come and watch the kids for me while I took her. The problem was her blood pressure was so low that they kept her overnight. But when she stood up it would even get lower to the point she wanted to pass out. The weird thing was her pulse rate was extremely fast? That’s where I was today. Nothing’s really changed and I think it’s because she has herself all worked up over it. She’s so afraid that she won’t be able to go home at the beginning of next week she will make herself sick as hell.” Marsha told John worried.

John thought for a moment then suggested, “Marsha why don’t you let me go see her. I know for a fact that I can calm her down and get her home.” He reassured her.

“I don’t know John. This all seemed to happen after she talked to you and convinced herself that you guys were fighting for some reason.” She told him.

“Well exactly. That’s why I need to explain to her that there’s nothing wrong between us. I need to know why she thought that there was something wrong in the first place. I’m not a mind reader Marsha. You women sometimes make a mountain out of a mole hill.” He told her. Well Marsha started laughing hard at him. He looked at her like she was crazy. “Why are you laughing at me?” he asked her shaking his head at her.

“Because this is just the beginning Hon just the beginning.” She told him now chuckling. Now laughing back Marsha said to him, “Ok I’ll get you in tomorrow how’s that I’ll be leaving around ten a.m. that’s when Abby will be over to take the kids for the day.”

“Thanks Marsha I really appreciate this very much and I know I can get her to come home with us.” He told confidently.

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Morning came and John was lucky that his parents weren’t home this morning. His dad had gone to work and his Mom must have gone shopping or something. So he was able to slip out easily and head over to the Levine’s unseen. It took about twenty-five minutes to get there and John was about jumping out of his skin. Marsha and John had walked into the clinic and she had to verify for John. They had walked in to Ellie’s room but she wasn’t there.

“Marsha where is she?” John asked her.

“She’s probably having tests done. We’ll have to wait here until someone comes and lets us know what’s going on.” She explained to him.

John just looked at her like she had two heads. “Are you kidding me? We have to sit here and wait til they come to us? Why can’t you go and ask them what’s going on you are her guardian right?” John wanted to know.

“I understand your concern John but it’s they’re policy. We wait here til they’re ready with all the information so they don’t repeat themselves over and over again. All I can say is they’re lucky that Uncle Paul isn’t here because he’d rip them a new one if they didn’t give them any info on his daughter that’s for sure.” Marsha told him wincing. They waited for what seemed like hours but it was only an hour and a half before Dr. Chan came in. He was the new doc who was working on Ellie’s case for the fainting and low blood pressure. Dr. Moore her psychiatrist was also with him seeing Ellie was showing her depression more than usual due to maybe not being able to go home on schedule. As Marsha and John were telling them their concerns and why she was probably this way all they seemed to do was write in their note books which was driving John nuts.

Finally one of the interns brought Ellie back to her room. She wasn’t really paying attention to who was in the room when the intern brought her back from all the tests that she was having done. She was tried, grumpy and totally emotional. As the intern parked her by her bed she saw Marsha standing by Dr. Chan.  “Well did they tell you what they think is causing my fucking problem?” she asked Marsha which kind of shock John by her attitude. He really never saw her like this before.

“Yes Honey they did.” Marsha told her.

“Well it’s a fucking joke that’s what. I’m under fucking stress? What stress? The only God Damn stress is them holding me and not going home when I’m supposed to. Then telling me I’m fucking anemic I’m not anemic. Dr. Spongen had me tested. Jesus why did he have to die. He was the only one to believe me in the first place.  I want to go home Marsha now.” She demanded.

John looked at Marsha and she nodded her head. “Why don’t we go to one of your offices and have a little chat shall we?” Marsha suggested. Ellie looked at her and wanted to scream but thought maybe this way she could get out of there faster. Just as they left Ellie put her head down in her hands and was about to cry when she felt these two hands on her shoulders and she nearly jumped out of the wheelchair but John was able to stop her.

“Hey calm down it’s only me Baby I’m here.” John told her as he walked in front of her and knelt down in front of her.

“John? You’re…you’re here.” She said shocked.

“Yeah I’m here Baby I’m here. Ellie why would you think I wouldn’t?” he wanted to know.

Sniffling, “I don’t know…I guess it was the way we left things…you were kind of I don’t know distant and like I said something wrong but I tried to push it out of my head then I didn’t hear from you in a couple of days then it turned into four and before I knew it I was here.” She told him.

John just closed his eyes for a few seconds then reopened them. “I’m so sorry Ellie this my fault. I should have called you and let you know everything was ok. I’m so sorry I made you sick.” He told her as he started to well up.

She looked at him like he just broke his promise. Was he feeling sorry her now? Why was he blaming himself for her not feeling good? This so was not making sense. Her head was starting to spin now. “John what the fuck are you talking about? How the hell did you make me sick?” she asked him now as she was now getting really pissed.

John just stared at her in shock at her outburst. “First of all what’s with all the swearing? I’ve never heard you swear so much since you got here. I mean really Ellie the potty mouth? Where did this come from?” he asked her annoyed now.

Rolling her eyes at him, “Well I guess you don’t know me as well as you think you do then. So how the hell do you think you got me sick then?” she asked all pissy.

“Whoa! Are you mad at me? You’re mad at me because I asked about your swearing?” he asked shocked.

“No I’m mad at you for thinking that I’m here because you thought that you put me here you moron! I thought you promised me you wouldn’t do that! You’re feeling sorry me so if you are you can get fuck out right now!” she yelled at him.

Standing there with his mouth open he finally said, “Look I’m not feeling sorry for you. Everybody is saying that I’m the one that put you here in the first place because I didn’t call you in the last four days. Marsha said she thought this because you looked like you were depressed that I hadn’t call and that you were over thinking things.” He explained to her.

Ellie just sat there and listen to him talk and she didn’t show any emotion she just stared into space which was scaring John. Finally she said to him, “All I did was have a fucking migraine attack. That’s all. Plain and simple. As for the blood pressure I tried to explain to them it’s happened before it’s the damn heat. That’s why I don’t go outside all that much. The sun gets me everytime.  Why didn’t Marsha and Michael think when Daddy gave them the money to put a A/C in my bedroom so I wouldn’t suffer from the damn heat and get sick. (looking at John) I want to go home.” She told him.  

“Ellie, Baby Marsha is trying to get you out of here today so we can take you home today.” John told her.

“No John I want to go home home.” She told him with tears in her eyes.

Repercussions

“Mom what the hell is wrong? Pop?” John looked at both of them.

“Oh dear please tell me she’s ok?” Carol asked her son.

Looking at his Mom like she was nuts, “Who? Ellie? Yeah she’s fine a little car sick but fine. What’s going on your acting like I killed her or something?” he asked his parents concerned and a bit scared.

John tapped his wife and nodded to her so she knew he wanted to say something to him. As much as it was killing Carol because this whole situation was killing her and she knew it was Ellie’s fault she let her husband talk.

“John when you called last night to say that you two couldn’t make it home well the Levine’s didn’t take it very well. Let’s just say they were…well pissed. I tried calling you back but the phone lines must have been down. You were lucky that you were able to call out when you did. Anyway they came over again this morning and Michael is livid. I think you should let me take Ellie home instead of you.” He explained to John.

John just stared at his parents and couldn’t believe what he just heard. Now he had to put a spin on all of this or he would never see her again. Ellie could hear everything in the car as the windows were down and could see John’s face. All she could think was her cousin’s trying to keep them apart. Ok girl now it’s time for your acting chops so she slipped out of the car on John’s side and walked up to him to hold his hand. John looked at her and gave her a weak smile.

“Mr. and Mrs.  Bongiovi I’m sorry my cousin’s screamed at you about John and me for that matter. But as you know it couldn’t be helped. John was thinking of my safety and didn’t want to drive in that weather so we stayed the night. We were lucky that John even found shelter and his friend even let him stay there. But I want you to know that John was a perfect gentleman and even protected me thru that storm because he knew I was scared to death.” She told them as she held his hand tight. John held it right back as tight as he could too knowing exactly what she was doing. 

“Well thank you Ellie we weren’t worried at all about…” just as John Sr. was about to finish that sentence Michael came running out of the front door screaming with Marsha running after him. She was hoping to catch him before he had a chance to punch John.

“YOU LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT!” Michael screamed at John as he ran over the driveway and John Sr. tried to block him away from his son as John jumped over his hood and stood next to his Mom. Ellie also threw herself in front with John Sr. and jumped up on Michael before he got pasted him and tried hard to get him to stop in his tracks which he did as he had this sixteen year old girl on his back. “Will you get off me! I can’t kill the little shit if you’re on me” Michael screamed at her.

“NO! Not til you calm the hell down!” Ellie yelled back.  Luckily Marsha finally reached them and helped Ellie down and grabbed her husband.

“Michael knock it off! Now can we please act like adults.” She asked them.

“Well tell your husband then. He’s the one that came over here to hurt my son!” Carol shot out.

“He only did that because your son had her out all night Carol.” Marsha shot back to her.

“Ok ok! Didn’t the Bongiovi’s tell you that we were stuck there?” Ellie asked them.

“Well yes but you’re telling us there was absolutely no way to get home.” Michael spit out.

“No Michael there was no way we could leave without something happening to us. Would you have rather John take the chance and tried coming home and have something happen to us? We were lucky that nothing happened as it was today as the roads were still so so. And he was a perfect gentleman I was scared to death in the storm and he helped me thru it. And all you’re doing is yelling at us! So just stop it all of you! Jesus do you all want me to go to the damn doctors and get checked out to see if my fucking hymen is broken! Well wait til my doctor’s appointment in two weeks and my Mom will tell all of you when I get back from my God Damn Gyno appointment then!” she screamed and ran to the house and up to her room. She left four adults and John standing there with their mouths wide open.

Finally John said, “Well I guess she told all of you. No we didn’t have sex and she’s right she can confirm that when she gets back. But I will tell you all this. We do love each other and I wouldn’t do anything to hurt her and one of those things is she isn’t ready. So there.” He said to all of them and walked into his house. His brothers were listening at the door so when he walked in they ran to the couch. “Hey goobers I saw you guys at the door so I know you were listening.” He told them.

Tony speaking up, “Yeah we were afraid that you were in trouble. Are you? Pop’s not going to take it out on you is he John?” he asked him as John could see the fear in his eyes.

Sitting next to them he explained, “No I don’t think I’m in that kind of trouble so don’t worry. I didn’t do anything wrong. Besides Mom and Pop are sticking up for me, if they were pissed I don’t think they would. You remember when me and my friends accidently broke Mrs. Weber’s window when we were hitting rocks with our baseball bats? I admitted it but I still got a beating for it because it was stupid to do it and I went with the group. Mom and Pop still stuck up for me because I had admitted it but I did something real stupid. I didn’t sit down for two days but.” John said reflecting on that time.

Tony was still nervous, “But John what if Mom and Pop they’re just making it look like well you know and then come back in here and tell you that well…” Tony started to stutter.

“Tone don’t worry about it because if he does I’m out of here. And as soon as I make it big you’ll and then Matty we’ll be with me ok? Pop’s a fair man you know that. He’s just really strict that’s all. Ellie was telling me her Dad stopped hitting them years ago. There’s five of them she joked that he got too tired so the two youngest got off easy. And her Dad has a really bad temper she said that’s where she gets hers from. But they all get along and I guess all her parents do is yell now.” He told his brothers.

“Gee I wish Mom and Pop would only do that with us.” Tony said to John.

“Yeah but her parents weren’t in the Marines now were they?” he told them. Just then Carol and John walked into the house not looking to happy. Looking at their boys John Sr. spoke up, “Hey guys, Tony could you take your little brother upstairs as we talk with John please?” Tony said yes and took Matty’s hand and went upstairs. At first John was a little nervous but he also knew he didn’t do anything wrong in his book so he figured he would stand his ground.

Carol asked him, “Honey are you sure there was no way you two couldn’t get home last night because I’m sure that jackass is going to check it out.”

Looking at both his parents, “Yeah I’m sure they said it over the radio so I wasn’t going to risk it not with Ellie with me and especially with her scared to death of the storm last night. I mean she was hiding her head under a damn pillow for crying out loud.” John told them angrily.

“John calm down we’re not angry with you. We believe you Son all we want is to know what happened that’s all. Michael is going to be throwing all these accusations at you and all we want is to be prepared for it that’s all.” John Sr. told him.

John was pacing the living room and then turned to his parents, “But that’s the thing once Ellie is done telling them what happened he won’t have a leg to stand on. Because she’ll tell them nothing happened!” he told them again loudly.

Carol couldn’t hold her tongue anymore, “Jonny how do you know that? How do you absolutely know that she won’t throw you under the bus and tell them something else and get you in trouble? Hmmm? No you don’t she could tell them anything and well you could be charged with…rape!” she blurted out.

John and John Sr. just stood there with their mouths open at what she just said. Then John screamed out, “Oh My God! MOTHER! She would never do that! How the hell could you even think that! What kind of sick mind…” but John Sr. thought he had better jump in before his son had said something he might regret.

“Ok let’s stop right here alright. Now I’m with John on this one Carol I really don’t think Ellie would do such a thing. When things calm down I and I mean I will go over and have a talk with the Levine’s and see where we stand ok? But in the meantime John you stay away from her until I do.”

“But Dad?” he blurted out.

“Look John it won’t be long I promise probably only a day and I know a day is like a year to you two but it will go really fast I promise. And You Carol you keep that mouth shut! Do you understand me?” he said to her giving her the Bongiovi stink eye. Carol wasn’t happy at that for one minute but she would or she knew he would squeal to her son about Dorothea. She would have to step up her plan while Ellie was home.

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Back at the Levine’s Ellie had ran into the house crying. She saw the phone and quickly thought yes and picked it up and called her parents. Her mother picked up. Right off Cecilia couldn’t understand and was trying to calm her down.

“Sweetheart I can’t understand you, you need to calm down. What’s wrong? Ellie what’s wrong?” she kept asking her daughter over and over.

Right then her Dad walked in from outside and heard his wife on the phone. “What’s wrong? What’s going on?” he asked concerned.

Placing her hand over the receiver, “It’s Ellie something’s wrong she can’t stop crying to tell me.” Cecilia told him.

“Give me the phone. Ellie Honey it’s Daddy what’s that matter? Ellie take a breath and tell me what’s wrong.” He told her again.

Ellie heard her father’s voice and started to calm down some. Hic cupping she tried to explain to him what happened from last night to this morning when Mike and Marsha had walked in. They saw her on the phone and she started to get upset again and told her parents which who were now listings together over the phone. They were surprised that she was seeing this young man there and Paul was hoping that she would forget all about Herbie to be honest and now she found someone else much to his chagrin.

“Ok Sweetie put Mike on the phone for me ok I want to talk to him.” Paul told her.

“Ok Daddy.” She said sniffling. Looking at the two of them, “Daddy wants to talk to you Michael.” She told him holding out the phone.

Mike and Marsha just looked at each other as Mike took the phone from her. Paul wasn’t too happy with how he handled the whole thing, not waiting for them to get home and then waiting to hear what happened first before he chewed them out. Especially not trusting her in the first place. But what he was really pissed about was why weren’t they told that Ellie liked this boy in the first place. All they were told was she kind of liked or she had a crush on some kid she told them that didn’t even know she was alive. Now she’s having sleep overs with him? Did his parents worry over this? Does he come from a good family? Does he treat her good? And why worry about it when she’ll be coming home probably in six months. Paul also told Mike that they will be speaking to her when she comes home in two weeks. Also they will be having a conference call with her doctors on how she’s doing. Although they appreciate everything they’re doing for their daughter they want to be kept in the loop with everything that’s going on even if she doesn’t think that we don’t need to be. We’re her parents got that? Mike and Marsha understood that they had responsibility for her and Power of Attorney in case anything happened to her until her parents could get to her. But where parenting came they would do it and in order to do it they would have to call them and let them know what was going on so they could. If they thought for any reason that this situation was way out of hand then they should have been called immediately so they could have handled it. The phone call went on for about forty minutes until they gave Ellie the phone back. She talked to her folks for a little bit more and they basically told her that they wanted her to be careful and that they will talk to her more about this when she gets home. And not to hate Mike too much he was only trying to protect her from the hormones of a seventeen year old boy and that she should be glad maybe that it was there and not here that it happened. She told her Dad to stop at least I would have Joe and Chick to help defend me. They told each other that they loved each other and signed off.

Later that afternoon Marsha went to Ellie’s room to see how she was doing. She knocked on her door and Ellie told her to come in. “Hey I’m really sorry for everything that happened this morning Honey.” Marsha told her.

“Didn’t Mr. or Mrs. Bongiovi call over here to tell you that we were stuck and couldn’t come home.” She asked her annoyed.

“Yes John did call us and Michael just thought that John was lying to his parents about that. He thought he just wanted to get you alone well you know.” She said to her.

“Well yeah we did want to be alone we couldn’t at the party. Then we went to some beach party where we met up with some of his friends that he knew for the bars. Said he had to mingle with them for a little bit then we went for a walk to this house that he knows, well he can stay there whenever he wants so we went in for a little while and he played his guitar for me then all of a sudden it started to rain then the thunder started and I wasn’t going out in that. No freaking way. He even was teasing me about putting a pillow over my head.” She told Marsha.

“He did did he? So everything worked out ok then?” she asked her.  

“What do you mean by that? We got home safe and sound didn’t we?” Ellie asked her a little miffed.

“Ellie I didn’t mean that I mean about the storm. You got thru it ok right?” she asked her again.

“Well yeah John stayed with me he wanted to make that I was ok during the storm. He knew that it scared me what’s the big deal? Usually at night we all crawl in with Mom and Dad or just Mom if Daddy’s working.” She told her cousin.

“Oh really? That’s nice. Where did you and John sleep then?” she asked curious.

“What? In the living room. I wasn’t moving. Between the pillow and the afghan that was on the couch John got a kick out of me making a nest on the couch.” She said scrunching her face.

“No I know how you get I remember the first time how you were when the storm hit and you were trying real hard not to show that you were scared for the kids’ sake. But you failed miserably. So I told them to protect you and make you feel good.” Marsha told her giggling.

“That’s not funny.” She told her not smiling back.

“We got a call from John Sr. he wants to come over and talk to us. He’ll be over in a hour.” she told Ellie as her eyes grew wide.

“Why?” she asked.

“I just think he wants to go over everything and make sure that we’re ok with everything.” She told her.

“Are you? And are you going to let me see John because Daddy said it’s up to them and until I come home and talk to them we really won’t have a real answer you know.” She told her cousin.

“You think so? What about the Bongiovi’s? They may not let John see you anymore. What if that happens?”

“John won’t let it.” She told her out right. Marsha shooked her head and left the room.

An hour later John Sr. came over and the three of them went into Michael’s study. Ellie stayed in her bedroom as the kids were taking their nap. It was killing her to not know what was going on down there. But more so it was killing her not being with John.

It took about an hour and half but they finally came out and they were smiling. Ellie was in the living room watching t.v. when they came out so she a little relived to see them smiling to say the least. They walked over to her so they could tell her what they had decided.

Michael spoke first. “Ok Ellie we came to a decision we’re going to let the two of you see each other until you leave to go home but you have to tell Uncle Paul and Aunt Cecilia everything and I mean everything that’s going on ok? If they feel it’s ok for you two to see each other then we’ll let you two continue alright?” he told her.

Ellie was just so over joyed she didn’t know what to say. “Well I’m going to get going and let my son know before he busts plus I need to fill in Carol. Right now she’s not very happy with the whole situation so I to explain everything to her. Once I do that then the kids can get together. I’m glad we were able to take care of this. Ellie I’ll have John you later ok?” John Sr. told her.

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When John walked in the house he was nearly knocked down by his son. “Well Dad how did it go?” John asked his Father.

John Sr. wanted to laugh but not Carol who was standing in the kitchen doorway wanting to know what was the verdict also. “Well they talked to her parents last night and they agreed to let the two of you see each other until she leaves for home. Then they’ll talk more when she’s home but what their afraid of is when she leaves for good and the emotional toil it will take on her. And to be honestly John so am I. You already said that the two of you are in love. Now I’m not a stupid man I know what comes next and I’m sure the two of you have talked about it because you said she wasn’t ready yet. But when she is that’s going to make it even more emotional for her. Are you ready for that?” he asked his son very seriously as Carol looked on.

John looked at both his parents and honestly answered him. “Yes I love her. And she loves me. I understand what you’re saying Pop I really do but a lot of people fall in love at our ages and then get married young.” He told them but that’s all it took to set Carol off.

“Oh My God John married! You just finished school! You said you wanted to start a life in music how the hell can you do that if you’re strapped down with a wife and possibly children just tell me how? Plus she’s ill how the hell are you going to take care of her if you’re living like vagabonds!” she yelled at him.

John thought hard before he answered, “We’ll make it; I swear we’ll make it. If it’s just out of spite we’ll do it.” He told them as he turned around and went to his room ticked off.

John Sr. walked up to his wife his and said to her bittersweet, “Ok Carol I didn’t want to do this but we have no choice now go ahead and put your plan into action.” He said as Carol stood there smiling smugly. 

  

Stranded

   

 “What do you mean the roads get flooded? We can’t stay the night Mike and Marsha will kill me! Kill You! John what are we going to do?” she was now getting very upset and he had to calm her down or only God knows what was going to happen.

“Well let me call my folks and then they can explain everything to Mike and Marsha since they know the area better. Will you be alright here while I go call them?” he asked her. She told him she would if he gave her, her pillow back. Shaking his head and smiling he handed her the pillow back and went into the kitchen to call his parents. He explained to them the situation and how Ellie was freaking out on him about it. They understood and told him that they would explain everything to them. He thanked his parents and went back to Ellie who was now sitting up and holding the pillow to her chest. John explained to her his conversation with his parents and that they’ll speak with her cousins for her. But she was still stressing out. “Babe everything’s going to be ok I promise now relax.” But as he said that the lights went out. “Oh shit! Let me go check the generator and see if there’s any gas. I saw a flashlight in the kitchen I won’t be long.” He told her. John went and checked the generator but unfortunately there wasn’t enough gas for the entire night. So he wrote a note to his friend to make sure that he got gas to get him thru the summer. Luckily there wasn’t anything in the frig that could spoil.

Ellie heard John coming back and asked, “John was there a problem with the generator?”

“Yeah there’s not enough gas for the night so I’ll get some more but I’ll leave a note for Tom to make sure he gets more for the summer too.” he told her as he made his way back to the couch.

“Well you did bring your guitar you can always play us something seeing that there’s no electricity.” She said sitting crossed legged on the couch.

“Well I could but I had something else in mind.” He told her as he leaned in to her and put his hands on her face and kissed her gently at first then gradually started to ease up and lean over her so he could passionately kiss her. When they came up for a breather he asked her, “Babe are you ok?”

“Hum um.” She mumbled out still a little shelled shocked over that kiss.

“Ok then how bout we just take it slow and say just over the closes is that ok? That way at least you’ll get use to me touching you in that certain way but not you freaking out on me ok?” he asked her.

Smiling up at him she asked him, “John I told you that I love you. I trust you. And yeah I’m scared but that’s where you come in to make me feel safe right? So make me feel safe.” She told him.  

“Ok then why don’t we take this to the bedroom where we’ll be more comfortable?” he asked her. She agreed and they went into the guest bedroom slowly seeing there were no lights but John usually slept there when he slept over so he knew where he was going. He guided her to the bed and as they reached it he slowly kissed her before he laid her on it. She scooted on in as he followed her as he gently brushed her hair off her face. Looking lovingly at her he told her, “God your beautiful you know that right?” he asked her like she would just know that.

“Johnnnn.”  She squeak and blushed at the same time. He loved making her do that.  “Please if it wasn’t so dark in here I’d say you were blind as a bat.” She told him as she tried to hide her face into the pillow in front of him.

Smiling, “Hey stop that you are beautiful ‘rolling out of the pillow and looking at him’ that’s better I can’t do this if your hiding your head on me.” He told her as he took her face and started to kiss her. As he was kissing her he started to ease over on to her just enough that she could feel something hard on her leg. That was kind of freaking her out again but she kept telling herself that it was just John and he told her that he wouldn’t do anything that she wasn’t ready for. But he kept rubbing his groin on her leg and the only thing was she didn’t know whether he knew he was doing it or not. She was going to let it go for now but it didn’t take him long for him to start feeling her up again but slowly as his hand moved up slowly and then started to knead her right breast with his hand. It wasn’t as bad as she thought. Or was it because of John. Never mind her body was starting to catch on fire and she never felt like this before. And before she knew it she was insync with him in his movements. Things were starting to get hot and heavy because John was getting a little daring as he seemed to forget who he was with and went under her shirt to her bra when she jumped up nearly knocking him off the bed.

“JOHN! What the Hell!” she yelled at him. “We didn’t discuss this.” she yelled to him as he sat up before he was about to fall off.

Huffing and puffing he looked at Ellie kind of dazedly. “Oh man Ellie I’m sorry. I…I forgot who I was with…sorry.” He apologized while putting his hands thru his hair.

Ellie just sat there stunned as he said that. He forgot who he was with? You got to be kidding me! Not only was she stunned but hurt. She scooted up and sat with her knees up and she wrapped her arms around them and trying very hard not to cry. “Excuse me but you forgot that you were with me?” she asked him with a shaky voice and tears starting to go down her cheeks.

John looked at her trying to figure out what was wrong. Then when he heard what she said to him he could have kicked himself.  “Oh Ellie I didn’t mean it that way really I didn’t. Please don’t cry.” He told her as she sat there trying really not to. Moving closer to her, “Ellie look at me please? I just got caught up with what we were doing you know and I just got carried away with myself. I’m not explaining this right. It’s not that I forgot you were with me it’s that I forgot myself. I just got carried away and thought maybe…I’m a jerk ok I’m sorry.” He told her and put his head into his hands.

Ellie looked at him and saw the frustration that was going thru him. She put her hand on his shoulder, “John? I’m sorry that I’m a virgin.” She told him.

John turned around and just stared at her. “What? Why would you say that? There’s nothing wrong with being a virgin Ellie. Don't you ever be ashamed of that.” He told her outright.

“Well if I wasn’t you wouldn’t be frustrated and well mad at me.” She told him as the tears were still running down her face.

“Ellie I’m not mad at you. Yes I’m frustrated but that’s because I’m a guy. That has nothing to do with you directly. I’m sorry I’m putting this all on you. And I’m not sorry that I want you.” He told her.

“John I can’t right now. It’s not because I have my period either I get that next week. You see I have an appointment with my Gyno when I get home you know my yearly appointment. And because of that my Mom goes with me and she talks with him about everything and I mean everything! I had a procedure last year so I’m sure they’re going to touch on that. But if let’s say my Hymen is broken he’s going to tell my Mom and then she’s going to freak and tell my Dad then after they kill me they’re going to tell Mike and Marsha who in turn Mike will kill you. And we’ll never see each other again because I’ll be banned from coming here ever again. I’m still under aged so she gets to come in with me plus being ill and all that. But next year I’ll be eighteen by the time they schedule me so my Mom can’t come in with me next year, so when I get back I’m all yours get my drift?” she explained to him.

John sat there and listened intently. When she was finished he was smiling. “So what you mean when you get back from your folks we can do anything we want?” he asked her happily.

Nodding her head yes, “Yep but I guess right now you can show me a few things we could do before then.” She told him smiling but a little nervous. But she also didn’t want to lose him while she was home so maybe this would show him how much he means to her.

“Wait a minute just a second ago you weren’t too sure what changed?” he wanted to know.

“You really don’t know do you? Because you tried to explain to me that your sexual frustration isn’t my fault. I don’t think another guy would do that for me. In fact I wouldn’t even have a boyfriend to be honest if I stayed home. But something tells me you’d tell my brother to go leap off a building if he told you to back off right?” she asked him.

“Well let’s just say nobody would keep us apart. And as for you wanting to um learn yeah there’s a few things we can do and it will certainly help. But I want you to be absolutely sure ok because once we start Baby it won’t be fair to either of us to stop in the middle of it.” He told her honestly.

“I understand I really do. You know I’m not that stupid you know.” She told him smirking.

Moving back over to her and sitting next to her, “Well we can make out some more if you want.” He said to her as he bumped her with his shoulder.

“Yeah but it seems anything we do gets you really worked up.” She told him bumping him back.

“Yeah well that’s because I’m a seventeen year old guy. Just you looking at me gets me worked up.” He told her smiling this smile that nearly killed her. “Are you alright? You look kind of pale.” He asked her.

Ellie was just staring at him because it was like all of a sudden he looked different to her. When he smiled that smile something came over her and her heart nearly jumped out of her chest. “No I’m fine really. I just love you I really love you John.” She told him as her heart pounded so hard she thought he could hear it.

“Yeah I really love you to Ellie more than you’ll ever know. What you say we try and get some sleep ok?” he asked her.

“But the storm is still going I’ll never sleep.” She told him.

“Well have you even heard it while we’ve been in here? And I’m here to protect you so you don’t have to worry ok?” he said trying to convince her that everything is fine.

“Ok but it’s kind of early isn’t it?” she asked him.

“Yeah let me look at my watch hang on.” John went and got the flashlight and flashed it on his watch. It said seven fifteen p.m. John told her and went and got back into the bed. “Well it is still kind of early I could get my guitar and play you a few things if you want or…” but before he finished Ellie leaned in and this time she initiated the kiss.

After he looked at her and said, “Wow what prompted this?” he said happily.

“Oh I don’t know you looked really cute when you said that you would protect me.” She told him still a little out of breath.

“Really now…well like I said we can do other things if you want to? Or I could still play the guitar if you want?’ he told her.

“I don’t care whatever you want.” She told him.

“Well why don’t we get ready for bed first.” He told her and he got out of the bed and started to strip off his shirt. She just watched him do this and didn’t know what to say but when he started to take off his pants she nearly choked.

“Um John what are you doing?” she asked nervously.

“I’m just taking my clothes off so I can sleep. Are you going to sleep in yours?” he asked her grinning.

“I dunno know.” She told him.

“Well why don’t you strip down to your bra and panties so we can cuddle then we can take things possibly to another level only if you want to ok?” he asked her.

She looked at him nervously but she did say that she did want that. She did want to trust him and she did love him. It wasn’t like they were going to go all the way. And she was going to have to tell him something that he probably wasn’t going to like. So she stripped down to her bra and panties and boy she had to keep telling herself that it was just like wearing a bikini no big deal. John looked real cute in his boxers. She only thought fathers wore them but John looked adorable.

“You know you look gorgeous. Come here.” John told her. They met in the middle of the bed and John stroked her arm then wrapped it around her waist. He kissed her and slowly laid her on the bed. They made out for quite a while and it got to a point where she trusted John enough to let him take off her bra. When he did she didn’t know how to react so she just looked away as he seemed mesmerized by her. “Ellie look at me please.” He told her. She looked back at him blushing. “You really don’t know how beautiful you are do you? Don't you ever be embarrass and just remember I love you so much.” He told her as he gently touched her around her breast before he went down and started to kiss each one. Her eyes started to flicker before they rolled into the back of her head when he took one of her nipples into his mouth. Then he heard her gasp and her heavy breathing he knew she was enjoying what he was doing. He could do something else he thought but that would be too personal and invasive right now and didn’t want to scare her off. He went back up to kiss her as he wrapped her I his arms tight. Then he rolled over on to his back still holding on to her so she could lay her head on his chest. “You all right?” he asked her.

Nodding and then answering him, “Yeah I’m fine blissfully fine.” She said happily. 

“Yeah me too.” He told her holding on for dear life. “Why don’t we try to get a little sleep and maybe we can well you know do it again if you want.” He told her.

“Ah yeah but you did it to me you didn’t get any satisfaction.” She told him.

“That’s what you think Baby. Believe me with you this is ten times better. I’m with the person I love.” He told her as he kissed the top of her head. Ellie could have jumped out of her skin. They dosed off for a few hours while the storm was winding down.

John woke up around one a.m. and realized he wasn’t dreaming when he had Ellie in his arms. He just laid there for a while holding her, feeling her, listening to her breathing. He couldn’t have been more happier in that moment as if he was on stage playing and singing. He finally started to stroke her arms just to keep feeling her when finally she started to move and flit her eyes open. Looking down at her he said, “Hey beautiful did I wake you?”

“No not really I’m just a light sleeper that’s all. I may sleep late into the morning but that’s because I don’t sleep much at night. It drives my parent’s nuts.” She told him.

“Really you’re a night owl too?” he asked her.

“Kind of but not the way you think.” She said.

“What do you mean?” he wanted to know.

“Well I think your night life is different from mine. Your’s is in clubs playing while mine is staying up watching t.v. because I have insomnia or I think it could be my med’s or the fact that they play my favorite show’s from midnight and on. Can’t seem to get enough of them. It’s my way of getting lost for a while an hour here an hour there of me not being me. Sounds stupid I know but I just needed to get away for while and it just helps. Oh God I never told anyone that before.” She said to him a little embarrassed.

He knew she was upset over that they led two different worlds. “Sweetie what’s wrong? Are you upset that I’m more outgoing than you? Because I’m not. Anyone who knows me knows that I’m shy as hell.” He told her.

Ellie got up on her elbow and looked at him wide-eyed. “You’re kidding me right? You shy I don’t think so.” She said sarcasticly.

“Yeah I am. I was scared to death to even approach you and if you hadn’t fainted that day I have no idea how I would have even approached you again so thank you for that.” He said as he tapped her nose.

“Stop that.” She told him smiling.

“No.” he said back grinning his wicked grin. He pulled down the blanket exposing her breast to him as he started to caress the left one gently. She hissed a little as this was a new sensation for her and he loved that he was the one giving that to her. Then he lifted his hand and put it behind her head and pulled her down to him so she was lying on top and his other arm around her waist and was kissing her passionately. He then rolled her over on her back so he was lightly laying on her so he could have a better position when he moved his hand over her. John didn’t want to rush her so he just let them make out some like they did earlier with some light petting on his part.

Ellie never felt like this in her entire life. Even thou they were both very young this felt very real and not only was she in love with this boy she trusted him where she learned a long time ago not to trust anyone but her family. There was just something about him thou she thought that she could trust him especially when she looked into those deep blue eyes of his. They went on for a while and this strange sensation came across her but she didn’t say anything to him as they kept on kissing and touching each other. But John finally did discover something when his hand went roaming south and came across her panties a little wet well more than a little and she jumped embarrassed as hell because she didn’t know exactly what had happened. She thought something had happened during the night so when John touched her there she nearly died. She never thought that he would go there seeing he was interested in her breast the first time. He knew that she was embarrassed and knew she didn’t know what happened to her.

“Ellie it’s ok really everything is ok. Don't you know what happened?” he said as loving as he could.

Looking down at his chest and shaking her head no, “No did I do something bad or wrong?” she asked him wanting to cry.

“No Baby oh God how do I explain this to you. Girls well cum differently than guys do. Which is good because it prepares you for us to coat you for when we you know enter you so you’re not dry and we don’t rip you apart. You never took this in school did you?” he asked her. She just shooked her head no. John tried to explain the best he could why she got wet and why guys liked it. She just stared at him as he explained and she just tried her best to understand everything he was saying.    

“Jon could you just do me a favor?” she asked him when she thought he was finished explaining.

“Yeah sure what Hon.” He said hoping he could keep it.

“When were out in public and when someone makes a crude joke or a joke that you don’t think I get but I laugh at anyway…well will you not embarrass me and make fun of me in front of everyone please?” she asked him with a sullen face.

John looked at her and couldn’t understand why she would ask him that. “Yeah sure but why would you think that I would do that to you?” He asked.

“No reason it’s just that it’s easy to get caught up when your with your friends and if your drinking especially and laughing and having fun and then you look over at me and I’m just sitting there and you know I’m not getting the jokes and what’s funnier than busting me for not knowing what they’re about right. That’s all.” She told him looking down again.

His eyes got wide and couldn’t figure out why she would ask that. “Baby I wouldn’t do that. I just don’t understand why out of the blue you would ask me that?” he wanted to know.

“It’s just that it’s happened before and I just don’t want you to do it to me ok?” she asked him.

“Well who the hell has done this to you and I’ll take care of them.” He told her.

“No, no I already took care of it I beat the shit out of them. But I just wanted to make sure that I’d ask you NOT to do it to me that way we’d already have that nipped in the butt so to speak.” She told him.

John just looked at her and couldn’t understand her sometimes. “You already took care of the ones who embarrassed you? Who the hell did it then?” he needed to know and now.

“Oh it was my brothers and of course they were with their friends. They thought it was funny because they all know I’m a Princess and a well virgin and thought it would be funny. That was until I swung at them. Plus that included David too ha ha.” she told him laughing.

Grinning, “Ok you come here tell everyone you’re sick but yet you tell me stories on how you beat up these guys. So what’s up with that?” he asked her smirking.

“I’m the oldest five John and I have mostly older cousins and I was bullied in school and so are my siblings. We fought with our neighbors kids growing up which we’re all best friends with and I’m over protective of my siblings. Yes I’m sick but that won’t stop me from hurting someone I love. I’ve been in pain my whole entire young life a little more won’t hurt me. That’s how I see it and when Dorothea and her little whores came up to me that day I didn’t care I would of given them everything I had and believe me I would of came out the winner.” She told him smiling.

Laughing John replied, “Damn and I thought Jersey girls were tough.”

“Well apparently they never have gone up against us Massachusetts girl’s now have they.” she told him and kissing him hard. About fifteen minutes later John started groaning and Ellie could feel why. She pulled apart from him and asked him, “John are you ok?”

He really didn’t want to turn over because he was harder than he was in a long time. “Yeah I um I’m…” he tried to get out.

“John I know I can feel it on my stomach or well you know and it’s really poking me. Is it supposed to be that hard because it kind of hurts when you stab me with it.” She told him shyly. Now it was John’s turn to hide his face in the pillow. Ellie saw him stuff his face in the pillow and was afraid she said something wrong so she asked him. “John did I say something wrong?”

John took his face out of the pillow and turned to her, “No sweetie now I’m just embarrassed that’s all. Which is kind of funny that’s all.” He said to her.

“Why?” she wanted to know.

He really couldn’t tell her not know. Not at this moment not what they were having between them. “It’s just that I’m telling you that it’s ok and here I am shy about me turning purple right?” he told her.

“Oh I get it you need to you know. John I can’t do blow jobs. I just can’t. Because well when my brother had his first one well he woke me up to tell me about this girl, she just did it to him and he thought he saw Jesus and well I just told him to go wake up our other brother because I didn’t want to hear it but he got scared then well we talked and let’s just say I can’t do it after what he told me. It’s just to gross that’s baby making crap that goes down your throat and it looks like snot! Plus Joe said it does taste like crap, too salty. I’d vomit in a second.” As she was going on and on about this John just listened and then busted out laughing. She looked at him in shock and didn’t know how to respond to that. “Are you laughing at me?” she asked him almost in tears.

“Yeah, yeah I am Baby because I never heard it described like that before. Baby making crap or snot. Oh my God I love you.” He told her as he took her head and pulled her down and kissed her with everything he had. Ellie had to wiggle herself out of his grip but he wasn’t going to let her go so easily.

“John! Stop it!” she squealed as she kept trying to get free.

“Why come on kiss me.” He whined. 

“No you said that was hurting you. Shouldn’t you well, you know do something about it?” she asked him concerned.

“Probably because if you or if I move the wrong way now it’s going to hurt like a bitch. Ok, ok look I’ll go into the bathroom and take care of this ok?” he told her.

“Oh ok will it be hard to do?” she asked him not knowing how the guys do it.

Smiling but he did promise not to tease her about things like this so he let that one go, “Um it’s call jerking off or masturbating.  There’s other words for it to Hon but we’ll just stick with those for now.” He told her.

“I know the words dummy but how do you do it, is what I’m asking.” She told him seriously.

“Oh ok I um take my hand and I rub it up and down my penis in different motions til I get the right rhythm and then when I get that feeling when I want to cum I speed up a little and then boom it spurts out just like if you’re having sex I guess.” He explained to her.

She listened intently then asked, “So why do you need to have someone do a blow job when they can do that to you?” she wanted to know.

“Chuckling, “Because it feels more like sex when it’s a BJ than when you do a hand job Babe. Plus it’s a better sensation when it’s in the mouth.” He told her smiling.

“Oh then can I ask you this? Why the hell are you with me when you seem you can get any girl to have sex with and to do basically anything you want too with than with me who is a stupid virgin and if and when we do it will still have limits because I won’t do certain things nope, nada, forget it. I just don’t get it John.” She asked him again.

John wasn’t laughing anymore. He looked her in the eyes and said, “Because that’s easy I love you. And I know you love me because you wouldn’t be here right now doing what we’re doing right?” he asked her. Smiling she knew he was right. “You know I could do this right here it would be a lot easier and faster if I had a little inspiration to help get this done.” He told her.

“Inspiration? Is that all I have to do?” she asked him.

“We’ll see. Um seeing I’m a little indisposed could you get some paper towels from the kitchen Babe?” he asked her. She said yes and went to go get them. John was happy that he didn’t have to do this alone. He had been doing this almost every morning since he realized he had feelings for her and now this was somewhat of a dream to come true tonight with them being somewhat together. Ellie had returned with the paper towels and crawled back next to John. John explained to her what he was going to do and if that was going to bother her. Ellie told him why should it but there was one problem. She never seen a penis before and babies don’t count. John laughed and told her no, babies didn’t count. John took off his boxers which he had no problem doing, he certainly didn’t seem shy slipping them off in front of her. Ellie on the other hand was blushing from ear to ear which he found incredibly cute.

“Ok Babe normally this is where the girls would put the penis in their mouth and start to pump it and lick it up and down. Me I’m going to just pump it with my hand. Oh is there any lotion in the bathroom?” he asked her.

“I didn’t see any when I was in there but I could go look.” She told him.

“No that’s ok I need to take care of this now.” He told her as he wrapped his hand around it and started to pump it. John saw Ellie staring at him and wanted to know why she had a concerned look on her face. Inhaling, “Babe what’s wrong?”

“Nothing finish up and then I’ll tell you.” She told him. So John with his free hand held Ellie’s and it didn’t take long for him to cum on his stomach which Ellie found fascinating. She found that whole penis thing fascinating. She saw John make a face and groaned out several expletives but when everything was done he was content. She gave him some paper towels and he cleaned himself up.

“You know Ellie it’s only around four we can still get some sleep and then get up around seven take a shower and you can clean your panties so well you know, then we can head for breakfast before I drop you off. How does that sound?” he asked her smiling.

“That sounds fine John I could use some more sleep to be honest.” She told him.

“Hey wasn’t there something you want to tell me?” he asked her taking her in his arms so they try and get some more sleep.

“You know I forgot. I really must be tired.” She told him. He kissed her on top of her head and they didn’t wake up til about six forty-five a.m. John found a robe for Ellie to wear and as she was taking care of what she needed he jumped into the shower. He tried to talk her into showering with him to save water but she declined saying that she needed to get her things finished before she took her shower. He just chuckled and took his so she could jump in so they could get out of there. They were able to hit the road about eight-thirty a.m. which wasn’t bad but the roads were still pretty bad getting out. The bridge was out on one way so John had to drive the long way around which put them an hour out. Luckily when they got on the main highway they were able to stop for a quick bite to eat as Ellie was starting to get a little car sick seeing she didn’t have anything in her stomach and her head was starting to hurt but she didn’t want to tell John that as she knew it was because she needed to eat.

 Back home the Bongiovi’s were fine knowing that John had stayed out before and knew Ellie was in good hands but the Levine’s were a little livid because they thought that Ellie was coming home last night but instead spent the night with a seventeen year old boy who liked their cousin very much. And in Michael’s eyes anything could have happened. He didn’t care what the Bongiovi’s were telling them he went off on them saying a few things that he shouldn’t have. Of course Carol got very offended in what he had said thinking that her son was a pervert. John and Marsha were trying very hard to calm their significant others down and telling them that each of them had level heads of their shoulders. Tony and Matt were on the front porch watching everything and knew John was in trouble when he got home or thought he would be the way the grownups were acting. They just hope that Pop wouldn’t be too hard on him like he usually would be when he got into trouble. He usually couldn’t sit for a full day when he did. To say they were scared for their brother was an understatement. Finally Marsha was able to talk Michael to go into the house with her and Mom and Pop went inside also telling the boys to follow suit. It wasn’t long that John finally pulled up I front of their house.   

Ellie was half asleep when he leaned over to wake her up. “Hey beautiful wake up we’re home.” He said as he stoked her cheek.

Inhaling deeply she turned her head and smiled at him. “Hi.” She said to him.

He leaned in again to kiss her and as he did that Carol came running out yelling his name. John shot up, “Oh crap what the fuck?” he said as he and Ellie both sat up. Luckily John Sr. was right behind her.

“This doesn’t look good John.” Ellie said scared to death.

John just looked at her, “No babe it doesn’t I think we’re screwed. Whatever happens we did nothing wrong and we did nothing absolutely nothing you got that?” he told her looking very seriously at her. She just looked at him and shooked her head yes in acknowledgement.