Two Souls Lost

A few weeks had gone by and all they had done was talk on the phone. Jon was able to get the schedule out to her but she wasn’t able to schedule herself off yet due to the holidays. Thanksgiving was coming up and her family was giving her grief about going away then for the long holiday so that was out and besides that Friday she wouldn’t be able to get off anyway because that was consider Black Friday and being a manager she had to work that. And since it was the holiday season they depended on her so it just wasn’t in the cards for her to take any long weekends off at least until after Christmas and New Year’s. Jon wasn’t too happy to hear this and he made his feelings known. He bitched and moaned to her about not coming out to see him and that she didn’t want this relationship as much as he did. She told him he was talking out of his ass and that this was the busiest time of the year for them and that she was just doing her job and he told her that he could fix that in a second if she would just let him. She told him that she was not going to be a kept woman and to go stuff his offer and when would he come into the twentieth century for crying out loud. This drove Jon crazy. Finally Thanksgiving Day came around and both of them were miserable.    

“Mom that was great thanks so what’s for desert?” Chick asked clearing his plate.

“Well why don’t you wait just a while as everything settles and then I’ll get everything out. Besides your brother isn’t here yet.” She told everybody.

“Hey you snooze you lose. Ha ha ha” Beth said as she helped her Mom clear the rest of the plates off.

“Come on little man let me get you cleaned up.” Ellie told her son as she picked him up and brought him to the bathroom. “Mom you want me to help with the dishes?” she asked her.

“No El I’ll help Mom ok?” Beth told her.

“Thanks.” She told her sister. She cleaned her son and put him down for his nap. Then she went into the den to try and relax as she hadn’t heard from Jon in over a week. She was going to be damn if she was going to call him first. Just then her Dad came in to see her.

“Hey Sweetie how are you doing?” he asked her concerned.

“I’m fine I guess.” She told him just lying there.

“Yeah you look like you’re doing great. It wouldn’t have anything to do with Jon would it?” he asked her nudging her a little.

“Why does it show that bad?” she asked him sighing.

“Just a tad. Look I don’t know what it is you two are fighting about but your Mother and I always talk things out you know that. So I suggest that you two get your shit together and not only start talking but start listening to each other got that? Or otherwise you both are going to miss out on a life time of memories and life is too short for that princess.” He told her as he got up.

“Daddy, I love you.” She said to him as he smiled back and went back into the kitchen.

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Somewhere in Colorado were five very unhappy campers that had to put on a Thanksgiving Day concert with RATT.  They were sitting backstage with everyone after their set and after they had their showers and the promotors had put on a feast for them seeing that they couldn’t be with their family’s today. So the back room was set with all the fixings of a Thanksgiving dinner. Everyone had their plates and were at tables that were set up as Richie went to join Jon.

“Hey man how you holding up?” he asked his best friend.

“How does it look like I’m holding up?” Jon asked him back sarcastically.

“Hey don’t get pissy with me I didn’t get all caveman on her. Hey sorry but you did. Look Jon you know I love you like a brother so I’m going to give you a little advice. You have to loosen up a little with her about her quitting her job. She’s been on her own for a very long time and taking care of your son by herself. Give her some slack. Unless you want to marry her and then maybe she’ll consider quitting other than that you don’t have a leg to stand on. You’re offering everything but that. How do you think she feels Jon that you’re not offering the one thing every girl wants her man to ask her?” Richie explained to him finally.    

Jon looked at Richie like he just discovered the cure for the common Cold. “Wait a minute you really think that’s what she wants is me to propose to her? But she never has mentioned to me that’s what she thought she wanted. She’s always acted like she just wanted to take things slow.” He told Richie.

“Well I’m not saying she doesn’t Jon but the way you two talk things out you’ll never know. I mean have you ever asked her?” Richie asked him.

“Asked her what Rich if she wants to take things slow or if she wants to get married? You’re confusing the hell out of me here.” Jon said to him really confused now.

“Either Jon. You both need to sit down and talk things out and see where you guys want to take things and then hash out what you want to do with your son. You know work out some kind of arrangement so you get to see him if you guys don’t come to an agreement.” He told Jon as he saw the worry in his face.

“What do you mean in case we don’t come to an agreement? With Jimmy?” Jon asked him.

“No not with Jimmy, are you listening to me? I meant with you two. In case you two don’t come together. You both will have to come to an agreement so you can see your son. Right?” Richie asked him.

“Yeah I guess so. I mean I don’t think she’ll keep me from me she hasn’t said anything like that to me and she has been real great about me seeing him so far.” He explained to him.

“Well then don’t push her you dummy. Look I really think she cares for you Jon I’ve seen the way she looks at you and believe me I’ve never seen Dorothea look at you like that Ever! So get your act together and if you really love this girl go after her and don’t look back. Because you only get one of these in a life time and if you blow this believe me none of us want to be around you if you do.” Richie told him chuckling.

“Eat your dinner will ya.” Jon told him as he put a mouthful of potatoes in his mouth.

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Later that night Jon didn’t feel like going out and drinking with the guys so he had called home to talked to his folks and his brothers. Once he had talked to his brothers and his Dad his Mom was talking his ear off when he finally told her he had to get off the phone. “Mom, Mom, Mommy! I really need to go now ok? Ya I have to get up early because I have radio interviews to do. Yes, yes I love you too. I don’t know probably the next time I get some real time off and yes if I can I’ll get some pictures taken to send you ok? No I don’t think she’ll mind because I’ll be taking the pictures. No I will tell her because I’m not going to lie to her Mom because you’ll have them in frames the one time when we come over and she’ll see them so how the hell will I explain to her how you got them then right? Ok I’ll talk to you later, right bye bye.” Jon said and hung up the phone. He took a deep breath and a then a big gulp of his drink of half and half. Sitting on the bed and lighting up and taking a deep cool intake of the cigarette to help calm his nerves he picked up the phone again and just looked at it. He said to himself ‘Why did he always have to call her. She hardly ever called him.’ Putting it back on the receiver and taking another swig of his cigarette and then a swig if his drink and laid his head back to think when all of a sudden his phone rang. ‘Crap’ he thought it was probably Doc trying to schedule something for him for tomorrow last minute. He really didn’t know if he wanted to answer it but then thought better of it and to get it over with. “Hello?” he said tiredly.

There was a silence on the other end at first then a sniffing before she said, “Jon?”

He sat upright real fast and was excited for the first time in a long time.

“Ellie is this you?” he asked her hopefully.

“Um yeah I was just calling to see how you were. Um so how are you?” she asked him curious.

“Well I’m doing wonderful now. We had a show to do tonight so I’m a little tired so forgive me if I sound a little off.” He told her.

“Ok did the show do well anyway?” she asked him because she didn’t really know what else to ask him.

“”Yeah it did the crowd was great. How was your Thanksgiving and Jimmy’s?” he wanted to know and wanted to know everything.

“It was nice. Joe and Mary went to her folk’s for dinner and then came by later for dessert and of course Mom’s cooking well she went above and beyond. We’ll be lucky if there’s anything left for leftovers. Oh and you’re son made a little piggy out of himself. He was just so cute. Got the chocolate pie all over his face. Don't worry we got pictures of it.” She told him laughing.

“That’s great I can’t wait to see them. I just wish I was there to have seen it in person.” He said sadly.

“Well Jon you had to work. And I hate to tell you but there’s going to be more holidays’ you’re going to miss. But I’ll try and get what I can on film for you. I mean it’s easy just to make doubles as it is to get singles.” She told him.

“Well you know I don’t have any pictures of you either. When can I get some of you?” he asked her.

“You want one of me? Jon I take lousy pictures but if you get lucky you might get one of me with Jimmy ok?” she told him smiling even thou he couldn’t see it.

“Maybe I wasn’t taking about one with Jimmy as much as just one with you and that’s it.” He told her chuckling.

“What the hell are you talking about it would be just me you twit. How else would it be?” she asked him making a mocking sound over the phone.

“Oh Baby you really are naïve aren’t you. I was thinking of you get a Polaroid and taking a picture of you in a mirror wearing nothing but you’re…” but he never finished.

“JON FRANCIS! Are you out of your fucking mind.” She asked him so her parents couldn’t hear her.

Laughing his head off as he knew he got to her, “What? Ok, ok I’ll take the picture then the next time you’re with me ok? That way nobody else will ever see it. I’ll have it directly. You just pose for me and then I’ll pose for you and we’ll each have our own set how about that? But at least this way I can jerk off a lot easier seeing that I have been a good boy believe me I’ve been dying here.” He told her as she could hear the angst in his voice.

“Oh you poor boy what you run out of Playboy’s? Or the sex channel? Or aren’t the groupies around anymore?” she asked him giggling.

“Whoa there just a minute. I’ve been loyal to you Babe and believe me it’s been hard because Doc keeps throwing these broads at me and the guys well they have them all around me. But I’ve been a good boy and not even a blow job just to get me by.” He told her.

“Really not even a blow job? Jon you do know that is sex right?” she asked him outright.

“What? You mean a bj? It’s just oral sex Babe it means nothing. It’s not like the full act of sex that’s intimate.” He told her and he really meant it.

“No Honey Sex is Sex whether it’s oral or not. It’s the same thing. When someone goes down on you that’s as intimate as you can get. Plus they have to ick swallow that crap. On both sexes. Either way we both cum right so…it’s sex. Make no mistake EVER! You got that. Because if you do well it will be the last of us.” She told him straight.

“I didn’t know you felt that way about that so much. I just never thought about it that way until now. I guess I just had to see it thru the eyes of someone you really love. You have to remember sex always meant different things to me Ellie but with you well you make me feel alive when we make love. I’m just not giving you a line either Babe you do something to me that I just can’t explain. No other girl has ever done that to me and believe me I really hate to admit that.” He told her from his heart.

“Why we never had any problem before talking and telling each other our feelings.” She asked him and wanted to know what changed.

“What changed is that you lefted me and I settled for Dot and she gave me the run around and all these others just want me for what I can give them. And now you well you are giving me a bitch of a time trying to get back with you. So how am I supposed to act?” he asked her.

Thinking what he said to her, “I guess you’re right. I’m sorry I don’t mean to be a bitch Jon but I do need to protect Jimmy and myself it’s just out of habit I guess. Tell you what I’ll try harder with us ok? It’s just I’ve been thru so much Honey.” She started to tell him.

“I know and believe me that’s all over I promise and no one is ever going to touch you like that again I swear. I’m going to take care of you and Jimmy I promise. So now where were we? Oh that’s right I was hard as a rock. But that seems to have been taken care of.” He told her sadly.

“Well it’s not like I can really help you with it Jon I’m sitting on the stairs so somebody will hear me eventually and what about me? How am I going to scratch my itch if I get one during this little encounter huh?” she asked him.

“Oh Baby you so don’t want me to answer that do you?” he chuckled.

“You are a perv.” She told him trying not to giggle and encourage him.  

“You’re just finding this out now?” he told her breathing hard for her.

“Oh! You are such a smartass!” she told him huffing now.

Now he couldn’t stop laughing. “Oh Babe I so need you. I can’t wait for you to come out and be with me. I’m so going to put a very big sign on my door that says ‘Do Not Disturb if You Do You won’t be Fired You’ll be Dead!’ can you electrify a door handle?” he asked her.

“Jon I don’t think so. What if we order from room service we don’t want to send that guy clear across the hall do we?” she asked him concerned for his safety.

“No I guess not but I can always disconnect it when he comes you know. So does that mean you’ll be coming soon?” he asked happily.

“Yes as soon as the holidays are over I promise ok. It’s just right now I can’t alright but as soon as I can I’ll schedule myself off when I see a break in your schedule. And if they give me any crap about it then and only then will I give my notice fair?” she asked him.

“Fair. But can I hope they give you shit so you will?” he said hoping.

“Yeah whatever. Look I really don’t want to get off the phone with you but it is getting late for me and I do need to get up early because it’s what it is called Black Friday tomorrow so it’s going to be hell believe me those people don’t know manners for some reason. So call me when you can?” she told him.

“I will and becareful then ok? Don't take crap from anybody. I love you and tell Jimmy I love him. God I miss you guys so much Baby.” He told her as she could really hear it in his voice.

“We miss you to Jon. We love you too we really do. I’ll talk to you soon. Bye.” She told him and hung up the phone. She looked at her parents who were watching a movie in the kitchen and they asked her if everything was alright. “Yeah everything is fine now. Thanks Daddy for the advice. I need to go bed big day tomorrow. Love you guys.” She told them as she gave them each a kiss goodnight and went to bed.

“What did you tell her Paul?” Cecilia asked him curious.

“Oh just gave her some advice to get off her little pity party and call him because she was making herself miserable and it looked like neither one of them were going to give in this time. So I told her to basically be the bigger person and call him and apologize to him and it looks like everything worked out. Now she’ll stop moping around the damn house.” He told his wife.

“Well I didn’t think you were that smart.” Cecilia smiled at him.

“Just because I’m a guy doesn’t mean I can’t have some good advice sometimes dear.” He told his wife smiling.

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 Jon hung up his phone smiling. He really felt he made head way tonight and what was more surprising was that she called him. He thought his night was going to be a bust but now he was flying high. He got up and went over to his suit case and dug out the schedule but all he had was for the months of November and December. Crap. Five weeks five to six lousy weeks without her. Well ok it could be worst he thought. She could have told him to have taken a flying leap but she didn’t. She loves him as much as he loves her. This time he wasn’t going to let anyone or anything lose her. He had finished his drink and went and made another. He couldn’t really sleep now he was just too excited so he made a note to call Richie B. to get a copy of the new schedule for the New Year so he could get it to her as soon as possible. Then he grabbed his guitar and started to play around with it. He had this melody stuck in his head and started to pick it out. Then grabbing his pad of paper he started writing it down. This went on most of the night before he finally fell asleep with his guitar on him and dreaming of his future with her and his son in it.