Frustrated

A few days had gone by and Jon was busy as hell and hadn’t had a chance to call Ellie to find out what was going on with her. He felt bad but he knew that if she wanted to be with him she had to know what she was getting involved with and that was sometimes days without him getting in touch with her. The guys finished up another great night and went to shower up. They did their rounds in the after party but Jon couldn’t get into it. He didn’t want to tell the guys his throat was hurting him and that he was still bothered by what Ellie said to him about the doctor’s appointment. He had to know just to make sure everything was ok. Jon made an excuse to leave early and went back to the hotel to flop. It was about two a.m. his time when he got back to the hotel and he poured himself some Jack and went to lie down when he realized it had to be about early morning back home. He picked up the phone and hoped she would want to talk to him.

“Hello?” she said as she was the one who answered the phone.

“Ellie? Oh thank God you’re the one who answered I really don’t feel like chatting with anyone else right now.” He told her.

“Jon? What’s the matter Honey you sound exhausted.” She asked him worried.

“Yeah we just got done playing a few hours ago and then I didn’t feel like staying for the whole after party so I left early.” He explained to her.

“So then why aren’t you sleeping you sound like you need it.” She told him concerned.

“Because you know how I am when I’m wound up. Plus I don’t have my favorite girl besides me to help me unwind and cuddle with.” He told her.

“Well you better get on that then I’m sure she’s waiting for you to give her a call.” She told him as she giggled.

“Oh you’re funny remind me to punish her when I see her.” He said as he growled at her.

“Oh I will don’t worry. But Honey you really do need to get some sleep you do sound horrible. Are you doing your treatments regularly?” she asked him.

“Yes I am ok?” he snapped at her but not really meaning to.

“Hon I’m just asking ok?” she sounded offended.

“I’m sorry Babe it’s just been a long night that’s all. I just really needed to hear your voice…” he was saying.

“And didn’t need me bitching at you I get it.” She added.

“No you weren’t bitching at me I know you’re just concerned I just took it the wrong way and I’m sorry. Start over?” he asked her.

“Nope.” She said to him.

“What? Why?” he asked her confused.

Laughing, “Because we don’t ever need to start over I know you’re tired and it’s ok I understand and if you need to vent I’m here. I just wish I was there with you Honey I think you need some stress relief.” She told him feeling really bad for him for being alone.

“Oh Baby more than you know. Look I need to ask you something so don’t get mad at me ok?” he asked her.

“Why would I get mad?” she wanted to know.

“Well it’s been bothering me for the past couple of days now and well why did you have to see the doctor? I mean the way you put it to me well maybe it just came out wrong but it just got me wondering that’s all.” He told her.

“Well I had to bring Jimmy back to the doctor to check on him since he had the flu Jon. Which by the way he’s fine now.” She told him a little confused now.

“That’s great I’m glad he’s doing better. But that’s not what I’m talking about. You said you were going to the doctor’s too. What was that about? Are you ok?” he asked her again.

“Oh that yeah I’m fine just my regular check up with my neurologist oh and I had to go to my gyno to for my yearly which I just love.” She told him making no big deal about it.

“Oh so everything is ok then?” he asked her.

“Yeah why?” she asked him back.

“No reason I just thought the way you put it that something was wrong that’s all.” He told her.

“No everything is fine. My doctor gave me a new pain killer it’s a nasal spray so I’ll see how that works. Jon is there more to this than your making this out to be?” she asked him.

“You’ll just think I’m stupid.” He told her and actually feeling dumb now.

“No I won’t just tell me.” She told him dying to know what it is.

“Ok well Richie and I were talking and I mentioned this to him and well even thou he was kidding he kind of said maybe you were or could be pregnant.” There he said it now he just waited for her to scream at him.

There was a pause as he could hear her breathing then he heard the biggest laugh he ever heard from her. “You’ve got to be kidding me Jon. Pregnant! Oh My God! If I was pregnant you would be the first one I would tell. Oh! That’s too funny. Now it’s my turn to ask you a question. How drunk were the two of you?” she asked him still laughing.

Chuckling himself now, “Well we weren’t drunk we were getting ready for sound check and he thought he was being funny. Plus he told me to calm down and told me that there was plenty of time for more kids and to stop worrying about things that haven’t happened yet. But I think he just wanted to see my face when he said it.” He explained to him.

“Really why? You don’t want more kids?” she asked him.

 “No Babe of course I do he just threw me for a loop that’s all. It just well I wasn’t there for you the first time that’s all. What I wouldn’t have given to be with you in the delivery room and seen Jimmy born and have cut the cord that’s all.” Jon told her sadly.

“Really at seventeen? Hmm Dirty diapers, sleepless nights, throwing up, screaming and crying ok.” She said but Jon interrupted her.

“Ellie!” Jon interjected.

“What? I’m just telling you that it wasn’t all roses Honey. Look Jon if I didn’t have my family I don’t know what I would have done. If it was just you and I we might not even be together right now because at seventeen and trying to raise a baby we might have tried to kill each other. We both would have had to get jobs and you wouldn’t be where you are right now and you would blame me for it. Maybe things worked out the way they were supposed to. Oh God I hate to say this but maybe your Mother was right and did the right thing ewe.” She said as she shivered.

“Oh don’t tell me you’re mellowing?” he laughed.

“No she still did it the wrong way and made you miss out in your son’s life. Maybe we could have found a way to work things out and you to still do what you love who knows right? And we can go thru this and do the what if’s forever but it’s going to take me a while to forgive her Jon.” She told him.

“I know and I don’t blame you. Which reminds me I told them that were engaged.” He said.

“You did what?” she asked shocked.

“Yep I told them the other day and it went over the way I thought it would. Pop wanted me to tell you welcome to the family he’s really excited. And well Mom she blew. I wish I had your folks. They welcomed me from day one even thou I knocked up their daughter.” He said sadly.

“Well they know how caring you are and that I love you so why wouldn’t they accept you.” She told him proudly.

“How much do I love you God I wish you were here I need you so much Baby. Are you sure you can’t come?” he asked her again.

“You really can’t wait a month Jon?” she asked him.

“No I can’t I really can’t.” he answered her trying not to sound bitchy or needy.

“Ok let me talk to Mom and Dad and see what I can do alright? If they say yes I’ll get on the next plane out to you you poor deprived little boy. And Mommy will come make it all better.” She said laughing.

“Oh God please don’t use the term Mommy ok? That I have to draw the line Babe now Mistress Ellie or we can come up with something and let’s see Master will do just fine with me.” He growled at her.

“You’ve got to be kidding me right? Lordy. We’re going to have to talk about this little fetish of yours when I get there Babe! Oh you don’t talk about our sex life with Richie or any of the others do you Jon?” she asked him almost horrified.

Chuckling, “No Babe I don’t. That’s where I draw the line. They may brag about their love lives but I don’t because I don’t need to. I know where I stand with you and our sex life and what’s great is that you don’t mind trying things which is why I love you. You trust me and that means so much to me especially after what Michael put you thru to trust me like you do. You’re so free with me and so beautiful Baby I want you so much. Are you alone by any chance?” he asked her hoping.

She knew what he wanted, “No Honey I’m not Mom’s in the kitchen having her coffee.” She told him almost giggling.

“Well where are you talking from then?” he asked her a little frustrated.

“I’m sitting up on the stairs why Sweetie feeling a little randy are we?” she asked him giggling.

“That’s so not nice and you’re so going to be punished. You can’t talk a little dirty to me?” he asked her as she could hear the desperation in his voice.

“No sorry Honey but if I do I would want to really get into it myself and well Mom’s not that naïve and I wouldn’t be able to ever look at her again.” She told him trying to not picture that scene in her head.

“Well that did it I’m so getting a phone for your room as soon as I can. In fact I’m telling Bozzett to set it up the next time I see him.” He told her frustrated.

“Hey Honey we’ve been talking for a while now don’t you think you should at least try and get some sleep?” she asked him.

“Yeah I guess so. When do you think you’ll know when you’ll have some idea that you’ll have an answer for me about coming out here?” he asked her.

“When Daddy gets home this afternoon ok? Do you want me to call either way?” she asked.

“Yeah would you?”

“Sure now get some sleep and I’ll talk to you later. Love you.” She told him.

“Love you too Babe” and he hung up.

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Jon and Richie were finishing up a radio interview as Jon’s voice was sore as hell. He had forgotten to do his morning routine and now he was paying for it. Richie looked at him and finally asked him, “Hey Kidd you sounded really bad in that interview what’s up with that? I thought you were doing your treatments like you were supposed to?” he asked him with concern.

Jon just looked at him with annoyance. “I have been but I forgot today Doc. Come on let’s just get back to the hotel ok?” he told Richie.

Knowing he was ticked off Richie just said to him, “Sure Jon let him see if the coast is clear ok? Hopefully there’s not to many fans out there to fight getting to the car.” He said as he went to find Rich B. to get them out of there.

Once they got back to the hotel Jon order some tea to help sooth his throat. He checked with the front desk to see if there were any messages for him which there were none. But he wasn’t going to take anymore chances missing anymore of Ellie’s calls seeing that they weren’t that great in giving him them in the first place. Jon and Richie were writing and just goofing off when his phone did ring. It was early evening and he knew it couldn’t be Ellie because it was way past midnight there. They both looked at each other and figured it had to be Doc or one of the guys. “Hello?” Jon answered.

“Hi Honey how are you?” Ellie asked him.

Surprised to hear her voice on the phone this time of night, “El? Baby what are you doing calling me at this time? Isn’t it really late there?” he asked her concerned.

Chuckling, “Yeah it is. It’s about two a.m. here. I had Daddy come wake me up just before he went to work.” She told him.

“Really? Ok is everything alright?” he asked her.

“Everything is fine Jon. I do thou have something to tell. Are you sitting down?” she asked him.

Getting extremely nervous now Jon sat in the chair next to the phone. “Ok I’m sitting what’s the matter you’re scaring me.” He told her almost holding his breathe. Richie was listening as he was sitting on the couch now intrigued at what it could be that she was going to tell his best friend.

“Well you told me that you wanted me to call you when I had an answer if I could come to see you right?” she told him.

“Oh yeah right? Well um were you able to get an answer for me or do I have to be taking cold showers for here on out?” he ask her holding his breath.

“Well with that attitude I should make you take cold showers anyway. But no Mom and Dad said that they would take care of Jimmy so I can come for a week just a week ok? Mom has a couple of doctor’s appointments the week after so she can’t take care of him or be here when he gets home from school. And they don’t want to depend on my siblings ok?” she told him.

“Oh yeah that’s fine in fact that should work out fine Baby because by then it would only be a couple of weeks left I think when we should be finishing up. Then you two should be coming out to New Jersey.” he told her. She thought about what he just said but thought better before she would say anything to him about that.

“Ok then well I’ll just throw some stuff together and get on the next flight out how’s that?” she asked him.

“Um you do know where will be right?” he asked her worried that she wasn’t sure.

“Yes Dear I have your schedule right here. Let me see the day after tomorrow,...Esbjerg, Denmark. That is where you will be right?” she asked him.

“Yeah we’ll be there tomorrow. Ok well good so I’ll see you soon then. Wait do you have the tickets?” he asked her worried.

“Yes Jon I got them this afternoon. You know I’ve been out to see you a couple of other times before this so what’s up? Why are you so nervous all of a sudden about me coming out to see you?” she asked him curiously.

“I am wound up aren’t I? (knock it off) sorry Richie is making faces at me. It’s just that well it’s what we talked about last night Babe ok?” he told her not wanting Richie to hear.

“What did you tell her last night bro?” Richie asked him.

“Fuck off!” Jon told him as he tried to cover the receiver but not well enough.

“What did you just say to me Jon?” she asked him shocked.

“Crap! No Baby not you I swear not you I meant Richie. (Turning to Richie: See what you did!) Look let me write down all the details and I’ll make sure someone picks you up at the airport ok?” he told her. He wrote down when she was coming in and the time and once she gave him everything she told him that she was going back to bed. They told each other they loved each other then hung up. Jon then turned to Richie and whacked him in the arm.

“Ouch! Why did you do that for?” he asked Jon while rubbing his arm.

“That’s for making fun of me while I was on the phone.” He told him smirking.

“So I take it that’s she’s coming?” Richie said to him smirking.

Smiling like a loon, “Yes she is so no wise cracks.” He told him.

“I’m not saying a word not a word.” He said as he was still strumming on his guitar.

“You’re a pain in the ass.” Jon said as he got up to grab a beer. “You want one?”

“Yeah sure “ he said as he gulped the rest of his down. “You do know she spoils the hell out of you Kidd.”

Jon just looked at him and gave him the stink eye. “Do you want this or not?” he asked him.

Looking at his best friend, “Yes please.”

“Then shut the fuck up.” Jon told him with a smile. They continued into the night writing what they could but they got more silly than anything this time around. They finally called it quits around two a.m. when they seemed to be feeling no pain. Richie passed out on the couch as Jon climbed in his bed and passed out. Before they both knew it there was banging on Jon’s door as Richie fell off of the couch to answer it. Blinking he slowly got up to answer the door and he found Bozzett standing there surprised to find him at Jon’s door.

“Richie Hi. Is Jon up too?” he asked him trying to peak in the room.

“Um don’t know? Just got up when I heard you banging. He’s probably still in bed we kind of had a late night writing session. Look if he wants to know where I am I’ll be in my room getting cleaned up and finished packaging.” He told Rich as he went across the hall.

Rich went inside and went to the bedroom and saw Jon face down in the bed. Carefully he woke him up and told him that they had two hours to meet downstairs to get in the vans. Jon just grumbled at him as he slowly got into the shower.

Two hours later they all met as they were loading up their luggage into the vans and keeping the fans at bay. It didn’t take long to get to the airport and as they were unloading everything and the guys were getting on the plane Doc was there talking with this very attractive female she was about five feet five and about what looked like hundred and five pounds with dirty blonde hair that came to her shoulders. She had a short denim skirt on with a cute light blue blouse and black leather jacket with a pair of black boots that went up to her knees. The only thing that really was outstanding was her pocket book or bag which was huge.

“Jon who the hell is that?” Richie asked him intrigued.

“I have no idea?” Jon said wondering the same thing. All the guys just stood still wondering who this young woman was as Doc was escorting her over to them.

“Guys I want to introduce to you Karen Benson she is going to be following you guys around for the rest of the tour. She works for Kerrang Magazine. She’s going to be your shadow. Karen this is Bon Jovi. Lead singer and on guitar is Jon Bon Jovi, lead guitarist and singer Richie Sambora, our keyboardist and singer David Rashbaum, bass player Alec John Such, and our drummer Tico Torres. The guys all welcomed her but Jon still felt a little uneasy only because Doc didn’t discuss this with him beforehand.

“Well I’m thrilled to be here I hope I’m not disturbing any boys club. Well I will be talking to each and everyone of you and then with all of you to see how you all get along together. Oh and just pretend I’m not here. I need to see you in your elements and Doc promised me I can photograph you guys when I can so no shyness ok?” she told them. As she was talking she had an eye for one in particular. And he was giving it back but was he flirting or was he trying to send her another message all together. She was soon going to find out.