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“Mommy Look what Daddy got me!” Jimmy yelled.

Calmly Ellie asked, “What did you do?”

“What? I brought home a puppy for Jimmy that’s all. Every little boy needs a dog.” He told her proudly.

“Well don’t you think we should have talked about this first?” she asked him giving him the evil eye.

“Are you mad at me? It’s just a dog El it’s no big deal.” He told her not really understanding why she was getting upset at him.

“Jon I don’t want to discuss this with you in front of him alright? Jimmy Honey why don’t you take him to the kitchen and get him a bowl of water and we’ll figure something out for food ok?” she told him. Jimmy took the pup out to the kitchen as Jon stood there waiting for her to yell at him.

Then before she started in on him he held up his hand and started to talk. “Before you come down on me the pet store is sending over all the things the dog needs in about an hour because they are out doing they’re delivers so they should be here in a little while they said. I ordered what they suggested. So basically all he needs is a name. So I really don’t see what the big deal is.” He told her again.

She stood there as she couldn’t believe what he was saying to her. “Jon the big deal is that you got the dog without consulting me. Don't you think that buying a dog is something that you should have say talked to me about?” she asked him a little miffed.

Realizing that maybe he may have crossed a line here but that Jimmy is his son too he asked her, “Babe ok I think I get what you’re saying but he’s my kid too so why can’t I buy him a dog if I want to? I mean I haven’t had the chance to really get him things that I wanted to so now if I do I have to ask permission first?” he asked her a little annoyed.

“Are you giving me attitude? Look Jon you’re not here all the time so you’re not the one who has to take care of it. It’s going to be like taking care of another kid. It’s going to eat and poop just like a kid and guess what where are you going to be? Oh yeah not here.  And I am and teaching a seven year old how to take care of a puppy.” She told him with just as much attitude as he gave her.

“Babe you’re going to be fine because you’ll have the staff to help you so what’s the problem?” he asked her again.

“Are you kidding me? I’m not going to ask the damn staff to help with the damn dog Jon. Because if it’s Jimmy’s dog then it’s his responsibility to take care of him and mine! That’s why Daddy wouldn’t let us get one because it would fall on Mom to take care of it because we would get bored of taking care of it so it would fall all on her. And now I know why he wouldn’t and if you tell him that I’ll hit you!” she yelled at him.

“Ok I’m sorry I didn’t talk it over with you first but it’s kind of too late now isn’t it.  I’m sorry forgive me?” he asked her now giving her the puppy dog face.

She just looked at him and she knew she couldn’t stay mad at him. “Oh will you stop that. You know I can’t stay mad at you when you do that you big dope.” She said to him as he walked up to her and put his arms around her waist.

“I know why do you think I do it.” He said in his low whiskey voice.

“Cut it out our son is just a few feet away.” She reminded him a little uncomfortable.

“Yeah so.” He said as he licked the outside of her ear. “You still mad at me?”

“Yes so now go away.” She told him as he was letting his hands roam her body.

“Nope and not til you tell me you’re not mad at me.” He said as he was kissing her neck now.

“Ok, ok I’m not mad at you anymore alright so stop and let me go.” She was almost begging him at this point.

Lifting his head, “Ok and I promise I’ll talk to you before I buy him anything like this again ok?” he told her kissing her on her nose.

“You are such a pain in my ass.” She said to him but he kissed her again this time a little bit more passionately.

Just then they heard little feet coming their way and as they parted Jimmy’s head peaked out from behind the doorway of the hall leading towards the kitchen. “Excuse me Mommy?” he asked her.

“Yes Honey what it is?” she asked him still blushing a little bit.

“Um Buddy went peepee on the kitchen floor.” He told them wincing.

They looked at each other smiling.  “Buddy?” she asked him.

“Yeah.” He said to her.

“Can I ask you why Buddy Honey?” she wanted to know.

“Because he’s my Buddy.” he told her like she should have known this.

“Oh well that’s a great name Sweetie. Daddy and I will be right in so don’t let him near it ok?” she told him as he went back in there.

Looking at Jon, “See so do you want to take this Mister?” she asked him smiling.

 “How about I take Buddy and Jimmy and give them both a bath ok?” he asked her with a lopsided grin.

“Why don’t you do that while I wash the floor.” She agreed.

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Finally it was late at night and Jimmy was put down in bed and Buddy was sleeping at the foot of his bed after Jon showed him how to feed and take him out. He came downstairs in search of Ellie when he found her in the den again reading.

“Hey Babe well they are both down at least for now. You know I meant to ask you there wasn’t any booze in the bar but you have my wine how come?” he wondered why.

“Oh that well they sell your wine at the grocery store so I bought it. I wasn’t sure if the year was any good but I figured if you ever did come home I’d have something for you. Anyway as for the bar I thought you would like to fill that. I really don’t know what kind you want in there so you can do that.” She told him.

“Well the wine is fine Babe so thank you.” He told her looking at her with all that he had.

“What? Oh by the way are you doing your treatments since you been here I haven’t seen you do them.” She asked him.

Trying not to get annoyed, “Yeah why you’ve been asleep when I’ve been doing them it’s all good.” He told her.

She looked at him and she knew that mostly she has been up with him because they have been making love in the morning and at night so they have been together so he couldn’t have been doing it then.  She’ll have to give Richie a call when he leaves and give him a heads up. Maybe he can do something about it more than she can. He usually listens to him better than her anyway.

“Good just checking Babe.” She said to him back.

Jon’s head shot up as he was reading the paper. ‘Did she just call me Babe? She never calls me Babe. What the Fuck?’ he thought to himself. “Ellie is everything ok?” he asked her concerned.

“Yeah why?” she asked him strangely.

Sitting up straight he asked her, “Well you just called me Babe and you never have called me that. So what’s up with you?” he asked curiously.

“Did I? Huh? I didn’t realize I did isn’t that funny I guess you’re rubbing off on me.” She said to him smiling and went back to her book.

Jon sat there a little surprised at her answer but decided not to push it. Maybe she was right and it was just a slip of the tongue. He went back to his paper and when they both started to get tired they decided to turn in. When they were upstairs they checked in on Jimmy and Ellie saw Jon’s eyes light up when they looked into his room. Jon had put his arms around her shoulder and squeezed as he was just so happy at this moment in his life. He had his girl and his son and they were all together but this time they were in a bigger house than his small apartment. He felt proud that he could provide for his family especially at his young age. He could see what his mother was saying that if he knew about the pregnancy would he still be standing where he is now. He looked over at Ellie and kissed her on her temple and gave her a weak smile.

“Come Babe let’s go bed.” He said to her as he gently moved her in the direction of their room.

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   They were lying in the bed all cuddle up after they had made love to one another and Jon was stroking her back when he asked her a question.

“Ellie?”

“Yeah.”

“Do you think well we would still be together if I knew about your pregnancy?” he asked her a little nervous.

As she was stroking his chest her hand came to a halt on his stomach. “Um well I don’t know I guess that would have depended on you.” She told him as she was surprised by his questioned.

“Ok well how’s that?” he wanted to know. 

“Well seeing that I’m the one who is pregnant I can’t runaway from it but you can so you really don’t have to stick around you know? But I’m stuck with the baby or at least til I would give birth to it. Then I’d have some options. Which I chose to keep him. I was in love with him as soon as I had calmed down and realized I was going to be a Mom. I knew I couldn’t abort or give this baby away. So if you were with me I have no idea if you could have stuck it out til now Jon. Would you be where you are today? Again I don’t know. What I do know is when you set your mind to something you do it so who knows we could be right where we are right now because my parents still would have taken me and Jimmy in. And you still would have gone and done everything with your music because that would have driven you even more.” She told him hoping that would suffice.

Smiling and kissing the top of her head, “You really have all that faith in me?” he asked her looking at her so lovingly.

“Yeah I do why?” she wanted to know.

Shaking his head, “No reason I just thought for a brief moment what my Mom is going thru that’s all.” He told her feeling a little bit of sympathy for her.

Ellie rolled her eyes but didn’t want Jon to see her. “Ok so what brought this on.” She asked him.

“Watching Jimmy sleep and thinking all the times that I missed.” He told her.

“Well you missed some of those times because of her or have you forgotten that.” She reminded him.

“No El I remember.” He told her sharply.

“Wait your upset with me because I said that?” she asked him shocked as she sat up. 

“No I’m not upset with you ok. I just get it alright.” he told her again still sharply.

“No you are I mean what the hell Jon.” she asked him upset.

“Well fine my Mom keeps calling me and well you know she does have a point. Your parents get to see Jimmy and well mine have never even seen him. And on top of that if something happens to you I’m not even on the Birth Certificate so who has custody if something happens to you?” he wanted to know.

Ellie sat there dumbfounded. “Where the Hell is this all coming from? I mean we just made love to one another and now all hell is breaking loose? Jon I mean why?” she wanted to know as tears were forming in her eyes.

“Well I had gotten a call from my Mother before I left and of course she pulled one of her crying jabs again and I blew her off as I usually do. Then when I was talking to Richie about it he had mentioned the certificate again and I blew that off trying to make it look like I didn’t care but Babe I do care. Shouldn’t I be on it? Shouldn’t I be his legal guardian? I mean haven’t you strung this out longer than you should?” he finally asked her.

She just stared at him and didn’t know what to say. After a few minutes Jon looked at her and asked, “Well are you going to answer me or not!” he asked a little too roughly. 

“Fine…I was just waiting for the right time ok?...” But he jumped in not so happy.

“Right time! What’s the right time! We’ve been together now for over a year so you tell me when is the God Damn Right Time Is!” he bellowed.

“Keep your voice down you may wake him! (she said as she got up and put her robe on) Look I just wasn’t sure ok? At first with all that stuff with Michael and then you on the road I just forgot and now with me not sure about you well you know I just need to be one hundred percent sure…” she was trying to explain to him.

“Oh that’s just great!(he was saying as he was putting his sweats on)I’m so sick and tired of being compared to Michael. And as for being on the road get used to it Babe because that’s part of the life style and you’ll always being hearing if I’m fooling around with someone.” He told her as he headed for the door.

“Where are you going? It’s two thirty in the morning.” she asked him.

“Down the hall to one of the other rooms so I can get some sleep.” He told her as he shut the door. Well Ellie just stood there and didn’t know whether to laugh or cry she was so mad. She sat on the bed trying to figure out where all this went bad.

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The morning came and Jon had a hard time sleeping. He was used to having Ellie by his side the past two nights so this night he tossed and turned without having her in his arms. Knowing he made a mistake leaving the bedroom last night over what he said to her, he knew he had a lot to make up for. He didn’t even know why it hit him like it did. Maybe it was the wine who knows he thought. All he knew now was that he had a lot to makeup to her and that he has a big mouth. He got up and walked out and down the hall to their bedroom. He took a deep breath and then entered. But he was surprised when he found the room emptied. The bed was still rumpled but he found her night clothes on the bed in a pile which meant she must have gotten dressed. So he looked over at the bureau and sure enough her pocketbook was gone also. ‘Damn It’ he thought.

So he went to Jimmy’s room thinking that maybe she took him as well. He was almost running down the hall and when he got to his room he threw the door open and nearly scared his son half to death. “Daddy! What’s the matter?” Jimmy asked him.

“Nothing Jimmy I thought I heard you fall but I see you’re fine.” He told him trying to smile.

“I’m ok Daddy see.” He told him holding up one of his action figures as Buddy looked on.

“I see Honey. Um do you know where Mommy is?” he asked him.

“No she just said she was going out for a little while.” He told his Dad.

“So she did leave the house?” Jon asked him.

“Yep after I ate my cereal and we took out Buddy.” He told him going back to his playing.

Jon went back to the bedroom to look for a note but there wasn’t any. So then he went down to the kitchen to look and there wasn’t any there either. Crap she was pissed at him. So he got the coffee going seeing that it was going to be one hell of a long day.

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Yes Ellie was upset at what Jon had said to her last night. She was driving around all morning to try and clear her head. She had stopped off at their little spot on the beach where he love to take her even thou she wasn’t a beach person. As she was sitting on the beach thinking she was trying to see his side of things and much to her chagrin she could see his side of things. And that pissed her off even more. Was she being selfish to him? Could she do something right now that would help him feel that she is trying to be a part of his life? Oh God she feels Ill. How the hell does he expect her to even forgive and forget? She got up and walked back to her car she really needed to talk this out.

So she drove and drove until she came to this house that she thought she wouldn’t see again for some time. She got out and walked up to the front door and rang the bell. After a few minutes it opened.

“Hello Mrs. Bongio

vi I think it’s about time that we talked.” Ellie told her. 

Daddy's Learning

They were cuddled up on the couch watching a movie when they heard the front door open and Jared yelled to Ellie that they were home. They hadn’t told Jimmy that Jon was home so when they walked together in the front hall and Jimmy saw his Dad his face lit up.

 “DADDY!” he yelled and ran to him and jumped in his arms.

“Well I can get used to greetings like this. So how’s my little man doing?” he asked him as Jimmy was still hugging him.

Pulling away from him he told him, “I’m doing great Daddy you wantya see my new room it’s awesome! And I have all these neat things I want to show you and…” but Jon was laughing and told him that he would see everything in a few as he watched Ellie talking to Jared.

“Thanks Jared so I’ll see you when I need you and then ok?” she said to him.

“No problem then I’ll see you Bye.” And he left without saying anything to Jon as she instructed.

“What he couldn’t talk to me I wanted to talk to him about Jimmy’s security.” He told her miffed.

“Why Jon we discussed this. He’s doing everything I asked him to do and more and the more you stay away from him the better right now. Can we not do this right now in front of Jimmy?” she asked him more with her eyes than anything.

“Fine we’ll talk later but I’m the one that hired these guys in the first place. I just want to go over what they’re doing to keep my family safe. You know they’re nuts out there that would like to get in here to grab what they could you know? I just want to know that you two are safe is that ok?” he asked her giving her a kiss on her temple.

“Stop trying to be cute. Now go play while I set up Jimmy’s snack for him.” She told him.

“Mommy set Daddy up some too ok?” he told his Mom.

“Oh I will Sweetheart.” She told them and went towards the kitchen as Jon winked at her.

She had set out Jimmy’s snack and one for Daddy as well so Jimmy could sit with him and still have his time with him. Ellie even started dinner so it would be ready in time so Jimmy could watch a little t.v with him. She was just getting the roast in the oven when they both came laughing into the kitchen.

“So I see my men are having a good time together.” She said to them as she put the cover on the veggies.

Jimmy sat down and started with his cookies as he saw his parents were talking but wanted his Dad to sit with him. “Daddy come sit with me.” He whined to him.

“Yeah just a sec Hon. (turning to Ellie) So when do you and I get some alone time Babe?” he asked her wrapping his arms around her waist.

“When your son is sound asleep that’s when.” She smiled at him.

“DADDY!” Jimmy yelled.

Jon turned around and yelled at him. “Jimmy What!”

Well Ellie was a little shocked as Jimmy started to cry at his father yelling at him.

“Good Jon. You didn’t have to yell at him. He just wanted your attention.” She told him as she walked over to her son to calm him.

Jon stood there not knowing what he did wrong. “El I told him to wait and he didn’t. So he starts to whine? No he has to learn.” Jon told her.

“And he will because we’ll teach him. But not by yelling at him ok? Just because our parents did it that way doesn’t mean that we’ll do it that way. I’m not saying that we won’t always not yell because we will. And he just thought you wanted to be with him because you’ve been with him all afternoon so when you weren’t listening to him he yelled to you.” She explained to her fiance while holding her son.

Inhaling and slowly blowing it out he walked over to both of them. Jimmy wouldn’t look at him at first he had his head buried in his Mommy’s shoulder. That about killed Jon. “Hey little man I’m so sorry I yelled at you. Daddy didn’t mean it. I’m still new to this whole Daddy thing Honey and I forgot myself. I’m so used to having so many people talking to me at one time I forgot my manners when it comes to the people I love the most. Will you please forgive me?” he asked his son.

Jimmy was moving a little and finally he turned his head to look at his Daddy with his wet little eyes. Shaking his head yes, “Um um I forgive you Daddy.” As he reached out for Jon. Well that made Jon feel like he could conquer the world as his son reached out for him. He took Jimmy in his arms and hugged him tight as tears were now forming in Jon’s eyes which made Ellie smile.

“Well if the two of you are ok now why don’t you finish eating your snacks while I continue dinner and then you two can go watch some t.v. for a while alright?” she told them. Well that’s what they did and when they finished they went off. About two hours later Ellie had dinner on the table and everything seemed to be fine. Jon helped her clean up after and then Jon gave Jimmy his bath like he used to do when he would be home. After Jon took Jimmy into the music room so they could play around in there and Jimmy was dancing as Jon was playing some songs for the two of them before Jimmy’s bedtime. Once Jon had read Jimmy his bed time story he had come down stairs to find Ellie but she wasn’t in the kitchen. So he looked in the den and that’s where he found her with her tea and a bottle of his favorite wine.

“Well what’s this?” he asked her.

“Well I’m just watching what’s on until you got back down here. Could you please turn it off for me so we can talk?” she asked him.

He walked over to the t.v. and shut it off and wondered what she wanted to talk about. Sitting next to her and picking up his wine glass he asked her, “So did I do something wrong? Is it about what happened in the kitchen earlier because I thought we took care of that?” he asked her.

Chuckling, “Just because I want to talk doesn’t mean you did something wrong Jon and no it has nothing to do with what happened earlier. You handled that fine. You’re a good Father Jon. So stop seconding guessing yourself. There’s no manual with this thing you know it’s kind of learn as you go. I told you there will be time’s where you’ll have to yell and time’s when you shouldn’t you’ll get the hang of it.” She told him encouraging him.

Taking a sip of his wine, “Yeah when?” he asked.

“I’m still learning myself.” She said. “But what I really wanted to talk to you about was do you think we fight a lot?” she asked holding her breath.

He looked at her strangely for a second then smiled. “No Babe I don’t why do you?”

“Well yeah kinda. It’s just that since we’ve been back together if it hasn’t been Michael it’s been something else. And it all comes down to this honesty thing.” She started to explain to him.

Listening he started to feel a little guilty but he had to stick to his guns or he would lose her for good. “Ok then so what do you want to do about it this?” he asked her.

“Well one I think we need to be more open to each other don’t you?” she asked him.

Shaking his head, “Ok we can do that.” Taking another sip.

“Can you Jon? Can you really be more open to me about what you’re doing and letting me in on what’s going on with the band so I don’t feel like an outsider to them especially when I come and visit?” she asked him.

“Wait a minute you feel like an outsider? Is someone making you feel this way because I can fire them in a sec…” he was telling her when she cut him off as he was rambling.

“Jon it’s fine no one in particular is making me feel like an outsider. It’s just when we go to the concerts and after parties with everyone I just feel like I’m…well it’s hard to explain…like I’m the third wheel in a date you know? Everyone is afraid to say the wrong thing around me or at all sometimes. Maybe if I knew them a little bit better they wouldn’t be afraid to talk to me like the guys do. Or if I knew who I was talking to instead of that is so and so and he works for me and that is so and so and he works for me also you get it?” she asked him looking at him lovingly.

“Yeah I guess. I didn’t know you felt that way at the parties Babe” he told her feeling a bit bad now.

“Yeah I know I didn’t want you to know because I know you and you would have over compensated for it and I really wouldn’t have liked that. I didn’t want you going around the whole place introducing me to people who don’t give a rat’s ass about me and only being nice to me because of you. I only want to meet the people that mean something to you.” She told him.

Looking at her confused, “You confuse the hell out of me you do know that right?” he told her smiling at her.

“Well that is my job isn’t it?” smiling wide.

“Oh oh oh so help me. Ok anything else?” he wanted to know.

 “Yeah if or when you want to or God how do I put this…” she rambled.

“Babe what is it?” he asked with a lump in his throat.

“Ok I guess just say it right. When you don’t want me anymore and find someone else that fits your needs please just tell me up front ok? Don't let me hang on because…” but Jon just couldn’t hear anymore.

“Ellie! What the Fuck! Why the hell do you think I’m going to dump you? I mean Jesus!” he just sat there in shock at what she just said.

“I just mean I don’t want to be led on Jon if you find someone else that you find more attractive than me that’s all. You don’t know what will happen in the future only because you seem to find that you needed to go find solace in those strippers and were not even married yet and worked out how we’re going to be together if we have more kids. I mean if I can’t be on tour with you are you going to keep doing this? And then lying about it? I know you say they don’t mean anything to you Jon but it does to me. I...I don’t know if we can stay together pretending that this side of your career doesn’t exist. Plus I’m tired of fighting about it.” She told him sadly.

Running his hands thru his hair he got up and sat next to her. “El I can’t guarantee that this won’t happen again. I can’t guarantee that you won’t find someone when I’m gone only because life isn’t full of guarantee’s Babe. I don’t know what the hell is going to happen twenty years down the road all I know is that I want to spend them with you and our children. Do you understand that? I screwed up plain and simple. But I do know one thing and it’s that I love you more than anything in this world other than that little boy up in his room. God I thought I’d never say that. Never thought I’d say that I’d love someone as much as I love you. But I do. As crazy as you make me I do love you that is. And we are going to fight that’s part of life too. So if you can take me as I am I’ll be yours forever well?” he asked her waiting for her answer.

Tears swelling in her eyes she took his hand, “Well as long as you never get sick of me then I won’t be going anywhere.” She told him.

“You better not be.” He said as he leaned into her as he started to kiss her and as things started to get heated things started to come off. They were too busy and really didn’t care where they were seeing it was their house to go upstairs. They were comfortable right where they were on their huge couch she had gotten and Jon was very grateful for it. So was Ellie as it was soft leather so the positions he put her in didn’t hurt her knees when she sat on him as he held her tight. He told her he loved to be able to look at her this way as her hair flowed down her back and down her front and over her breasts. And with the pinkness in her cheeks and her eyes turning a deep green it drove him crazy.

A few hours later he woke up with the afghan that he had put on them and her wrapped in his arms. Her hair smelled like jasmine and as the aroma went thru his nostrils it gave him chills like no one ever has in his short life even thou he felt like he has lived forever in this short Rock world. Was it really worth screwing around as he put it to himself when he needed relief to lose this feeling with the one he truly loved? Would it really hurt to give monogamy a try? She started to move in his arms and it was probably one of the worse things she could have done because her bottom was directly across something that was definitely waking up. So he moved her hair to one side and started to nibble the nape of her neck as she started squirming and giggling.

“Hey green eyes you waking up?” he asked her as his hand went roaming to her front and found what he was looking for.

“Hey how can I stay asleep with you poking me like that huh?” she laughed.

“Oh I was hoping that you’d noticed.” He said as he continued his assault on her neck as she giggled and tried to put her shoulder and neck together as she was very ticklish there. “Hey I’m trying to suck on that.” he told her as he chuckled.

“Well it tickles.” She said trying now to turn in his arms. “Opps now you’re poking me in my…” but Jon laid one on her.

Parting finally, “There how was that?” he asked her.

“I thought you wanted me to talk dirty to you?” she asked a little confused.

“I do why?” he said looking at her.

“Well then why did you stop me?” she wanted to know.

“Oh did I stop you?” he asked looking all innocent at her.

“You know you did?” she said sweetly.

“Well then why don’t you continue then, as you see you have my complete attention. So you were saying I was poking you where?” He asked her smirking.

“You know damn where.” She told him sarcastically.

“I know but I want to hear you say it.” He told her all deep and husky as his hands started to roam her body now.

So she did as she drew it out in a whisper. “Fine you’re poking me in my pussy Baby.” Well that was enough for Jon and it really didn’t take much anyway as he pushed her down and rolled on her as he kissed her long and hard. And he easily with one leg opened her legs so he could entered her slowly and started to trust into her and once he knew it was conformable for her he went faster and faster as he could feel her thrive under him. She wrapped her legs around him to hang on as she hung on him as she wrapped her arms around his neck as she felt she was about to explode throughout her body and she wanted to scream her head off. But instead she held it in and bit her lower lip and didn’t even realize she was doing it until her organism hit her like a bomb and she let out a scream as she came and he finally did as well when he groaned loudly and collapsed on her all satisfied. It wasn’t long when he rolled off of her and on his side and breathed in deeply.

“Baby are you ok?”’ he finally asked her concerned still breathing deeply.

Smiling she answered him, “Yeah I’m fine Sweetie just fine what about you?”

Finding her hand next to him and taking it. “Me too. God I love you.” He told her.

“Not as much as I love you. (turning on her side) Jon I really love you being home. I don’t want you to leave.” There she said it.

As he is laying on his side, “I know and I don’t want to go back either I love waking up with you by my side and being a family but I have to finish this album you know that. Hopefully it should only be another few months and I’ll be home.” He explained to her as he stroked her hair.

“Well I’m glad you surprised me because this was nice.” As she cuddled up to him.

“Yeah so am I.” he said as he held her tight. He was just getting the feeling again when the door of the Den started to rattle. Then when it didn’t open there was a banging on the door.

“MOMMY! I can’t open the door!” Jimmy yelled.

“Well someone is up.” Jon laughed.

“Yup I should get dressed and go get him.” She said as she tried to get up but Jon stopped her.

“Nope I’ll do it. I told you I’m only here for a short time and I want to be with him for as long as I can. You rest you deserve it Babe.” He told her as he got up and threw on his sweats. Walking over to the door and opening it he saw Jimmy ready to bang on it again. “Hey there little man what do you say we go to the kitchen and get some breakfast while Mommy sleeps ok?” he asked his son. Jimmy agreed and they both took off for the kitchen. Seeing it was Saturday this meant that Jared wouldn’t be over so he would have all day with him.

Ellie loved that she got to sleep in for a change and when she as able to sneak up to their bedroom to get some sleep. A few hours later she finally did come down stairs and she found her boys outside playing ball. She stood there as she watched them running around with the football chasing each other as they were laughing and tackling one another and just having the time of their lives. She really hated that he had to leave the day after tomorrow and would have to explain to Jimmy again why Daddy would have to leave them but that was the business that he was in. She knew from the minute she met him that this was going to be his lifestyle but she regrets that she wasn’t there from the start. But she is now and there wasn’t anyone that is going to make her leave him that was for sure.

She went to make her tea when she heard the kitchen door open and they came in laughing.

“Mommy me and Daddy were playing football outside.” He told her huffing and puffing.

“Really? Well who won?” she asked him.

“Well we don’t keep score Mommy. We were just throwing the ball and running that’s all Daddy was just teaching me.” He told her still out of breath.

 “Oh ok well Daddy I see that you seem to be out of breath as well. You ok?” she asked him chuckling.

“Oh I’m just fine but you have to remember Babe I had this big exercise earlier this morning so…” he tried to explain to her.

“Yeah right it’s hard running after a seven year old isn’t it. So don’t go trying to explain it away by how tried you are by what we did this morning Bub. You run up and down the stage almost every night and you’re telling me your tired out by your seven year old? Try doing it every day Buddy.” She told him giggling.

“Ok, ok I give up, you got me.” He told her as he wrapped his arms around her waist.

“Ewe. Daddy, Mommy can I have some cookies please.” Jimmy asked them as he was a little weired out as they were showing each other more than a little affection to each other.

“Yeah sure Honey I’ll get them.” Ellie said as she went to the cabinet to get the cookies and Jon went to get the milk.

“Hey Mommy can I have some too?” Jon asked her making a puppy dog face.

“Only if you’re a good boy too.” She said to him.

“Oh Mommy Daddy has been a good boy I told you he was teaching me how to play football. So can he get some cookies please?” Jimmy asked her with a pleading face.

“OK I guess I’m out numbered here.” She laughed and put the box of cookies down and two glasses for the milk.

After that Jon needed to go out for a while as he had to run into town for a little bit seeing that he had something to do for the record company and told Ellie that he would be back as soon as he could. Ellie told him fine and knew he had to do what he had to do. So he went in real quick and gave a quick report on the progress of the record seeing that they wanted him to come in personally if he was going to be home for any reason. After about an hour which took more time that he wanted.

Meanwhile Ellie and Jimmy were playing a game as she had looked at the time and saw that three hours had gone by and no Jon. Boy she thought they were really keeping him. I hope he doesn’t come home all pissy. About another twenty minutes went by when the front door open and Jon walked in and he yelled out that he was home. Jimmy got so excited that he ran to see his Dad.

“Jimmy don’t run or you’ll fall!” Ellie yelled to him. Getting up and going after him she followed him to the front door where when she got there low and behold was Jon smiling from ear to ear and their son holding a Golden Retriever puppy. 

I Confess

Looking her in the eyes he said, “Oh my God you know Alec he doesn’t know what the hell he’s saying when he’s drunk. He could have heard any of the girl’s say they were with me and bragging that they were doing me just to get some credit. They all were out to do me. I can’t believe you’re going by that.” He told her almost laughing at her.

Looking at him she couldn’t believe that he was trying not to laugh at her when she told him. “Are you getting a good laugh at this? Is this how it’s going to be? I explain to you how I feel or how I find things out and you laugh at me? I would never do that to you Jon. I would always hear you out then discuss it. But never make you feel foolish. Dinner’s ready if you want it.” She told him and left him standing in the middle of the bedroom.

He finished dressing and went down to the kitchen as he could smell the food coming from there. Ellie could cook some even thou they did hire a cook but she wasn’t on tonight. Walking in the oven was turned off and sitting on the counter was a chicken with veggies on the range and rice but no Ellie. He walked over to the Pantry and looked in there and that was empty too. So was the bathroom off the side. So he took a walk thru out the house she had to be somewhere. As he did he really liked what he saw. He couldn’t have liked it any better if he did this himself then when he walked into the music room. His mouth dropped as he looked around and saw what she did. Everything he would have put in here that he would have. He couldn’t believe what a wonderful job she did and she did it all for him. Leaving the Music room he went down the hall and as he was walking past this one door he heard some noise coming from it. So he quietly opened the door enough to peek in and saw Ellie working in there opening a box and setting some shelves up.

Opening the door wider he startled her. “Hey I’m sorry El I didn’t mean to scare you. You need help with that?” he asked her about the shelf.

Looking at him, “No I’m fine so did you eat?” she asked him?

“No I came looking for you first but it looked good. Why don’t you come back with me and we’ll talk over dinner ok?” he asked her as he looked around the room. “Babe is this room going to be what I think?”

“Yeah why? You going to make cracks about it? I figured there’s enough rooms in this place that I could have my own room.” She told him.

“No it’s fine really you know I don’t care you can have all the rooms you want. I saw the Music room thank you it’s beautiful Babe.” He told her not knowing if he should approach her.

“You like it? Good I was hoping you would. That’s why I need this and I know you’re going to put your recording studio in I didn’t think you would care if I had an Elvis room.” She told him.

“No I told you; you can have whatever you want. Now come on let’s go eat.” He said as he took her hand and they headed towards the kitchen.

Setting up their dinner at the kitchen table Jon decided he would start. “So Babe I’m sorry that I laughed at you upstairs I really didn’t mean to. So you want to ask me questions go ahead.” he told her while taking a bite.

“Jon I think you know my question did you or did you not have sex with any of those strippers?” she asked him out right.

“No not sex just oral. And it was on their part to me.” he finally told her but knew if he told her the entire truth she would leave him in an instant.

Pushing away her dinner, “So they did oral on you?” she asked him as he shooked his head yes. “Even thou you knew how I felt about that?” Again Jon shooked his head yes. Remember what her brother told her she was really trying very hard to put herself in his shoes and feeling the way he would have being away from his loved ones for long periods of times. “So I guess phone sex with me wasn’t doing it anymore for you huh?” she asked him a little angrily.

“El what do you want me to say to that? Of course not I loved our phone sex and I love our love making together. (getting up and walking over to her) I’ve never ever had a more loving, sexier, beautiful, and adventurous partner than you before or ever will because I want you to be by my side til the day I die don’t you get that?” he said to her as he knelt down beside her.

“I thought I did Jon but I’m not so sure now. I love you so much that it hurts sometimes but if you need more than I can give you…” she started to say as she teared up.

“No, no that’s not what I said. You are more than I’II ever want. You said you talked to your brother what did you mean by that? Joe? Because he doesn’t like me, what did he tell you to leave me? He told you to leave me didn’t he?” He asked her getting pissed.

Looking at him as she was now getting angry at him, “No Jon he didn’t. He actually explained to me why guys cheat or don’t cheat but get some like you did. And told me to cut you some slack. So don’t blame Joey he’s a fucking guy and sided with you. But he did tell me to go with my heart so…Oh and that if he needed me he would kick your ass for me any time. That he would love to do.” She told him getting up from the table as Jon stood up as well.  

“Yeah I bet he would. Sorry I didn’t know he did that. Did it help you any to talk to him?” he asked her while he had his fingers crossed.

“What that it was ok for you to cheat on me? No it didn’t. Because stupid me somewhere in the back of my head I still didn’t think you would do that to me. Boy was I naïve huh?” she said to him rolling her eyes.

“Ellie I made a huge mistake I admit that ok? But it was only oral sex it wasn’t like I was making love to them.” He told her as he tried to touch her as she moved away from him.

“How can I make you understand this oral sex is sex. It’s still an intimate act. We do it and believe me for me you can’t get more intimate than putting your God Damn face in someone’s private area’s Jon!” she loudly told him.

He stood there knowing damn well she was right and feeling like a heel on top of it. But he had to tell her something or she would find out that it was more than oral sex he was having with those strippers. It wasn’t that he didn’t love her, he loved her more than anything but life on the road was lonely and she couldn’t be there for him twenty-four seven. And he figured what she didn’t know wouldn’t hurt her, until now.

“Ellie I didn’t do this to hurt you I would rather cut off my right arm than hurt you. You know I could have lied to you you know but I didn’t I came clean doesn’t that count for anything?” he asked her giving her those royal blue eyes of his.

She looked him straight into those royal blue eyes of his and told him, “I don’t know Jon, Michael cheated on me all the time and he just expected me to accept it. You seem to want me to accept it to. Then what are you going to walk all over me too?” she asked him as he looked at her shocked.

“How the hell can you even compare me to that pig!” he yelled at her as he was insulted at her statement.

“Well easy that’s how Michael started with the little things like promising me he wouldn’t be doing it again then telling me this or that. Oh and when I caught him again and accused him after he hit me and said he wouldn’t do that again and Joe and Chick had to take me to the hospital one night when he nearly killed me. Oh right you saw my back.” She spit at him.”

“Oh My God! You think I’m going to hit you!” he yelled back at her.

“You didn’t get what I’m saying do you? If I let you slide on one thing then you’ll slide on other things Jon! They just snowball like Michael did. Because if I left him when he cheated on me in the first place when everyone told me too I wouldn’t have had to go thru the thing I did. So my question to you is Are you going to put me thru the shit he did! Because if you are then I’m taking Jimmy and getting the hell out of here now!” she told him as tears ran down her face.

Jon was frozen where he stood. He really didn’t think what he had done would affect her the way it had.  He just wasn’t thinking. Well he was but with the wrong body part. Finally being able to move he walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her tight as she cried into his chest.

“Baby I’m so sorry I didn’t realize…I’m such a jerk…we can work this out I know we can please don’t lose faith in me…I know I can make this right if you just give me half a chance.” he told her rubbing her back while she still cried in his arms as tears were falling down his cheeks. They stood there for a little while when finally Ellie started to pull away from him. Her face was red and puffy especially her eyes as they were really red.  His eyes were puffy and red.

“I’m not really hungry and my head is really killing me so I’m going upstairs and take something for it and lay down so could you put the food in the frig for me?” she asked him.

“Yeah sure no problem you go rest and I’ll be up in a little bit ok?” he told her.

Jon put the food away and decided to take a little tour of the house so that way it would give her some time to relax and get her headache under control and to calm down some.

Ellie went back to their bedroom and put on her P.J.’s, took her med’s and crawled into bed. Her head was throbbing so bad she just wanted to cut it off. The darkness helped some and she tried to slow her breathing down some also. She also tried to mediate to see if that would help. It helped to a point that she fell asleep. So a half hour later Jon went upstairs to check on her and found her sound asleep. Well that went his night that he had planned when he got home. So he went back down stairs and maybe he could find something on t.v. to watch. His studio wasn’t up and running but he did get bored enough he could always go into the music room and goof around in there. He went into the liquor cabinet to see if she had it stock yet but no she hadn’t just his luck. No booze in the house. Great. This is going to be one hell of a long night.

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Morning came and Jon woke up in the chair in the Den with the t.v. still on.  His back was killing him as he was in a sitting position all night. He got up slowly as he had his hand on his lower back and stretching as he got up. Walking over to the t.v. he turned it off and walked in the kitchen to start his coffee. The aroma from the coffee pot helped him a little to wake up but mostly when he poured himself a cup and that hot dark golden liquid hit him that was what finally help to wake him up and give him the nerve to go upstairs to see how Ellie was this morning.

Walking up the stairs and then down the hall he approached their bedroom. Taking a deep breath he turned the knob and opened the door. Walking in he sees her asleep in their bed. Walking over to her side of the bed and sitting next to her he couldn’t help but stare at her. He noticed that all the puffiness was gone and how beautiful she looked laying there. Caressing her cheek and arm he was thinking of the time when he talked her into going out with him finally and when he kissed her for the first time. He knew right then and there that she had his heart.

Slowly her eyes started to flutter open and saw him staring down at her. “Hi.” She said groggily.

“Hi sleepy head. How are you feeling?” he asked her concerned.

“A little bit better. I woke a little while ago to take something else so yeah I feel a bit better.” She told him.

“That’s good, you want something like your tea?” he asked her.

“That’s ok I can get up and get it myself but thanks.” She told him as she sat up.

“Ok…can I ask you something? (she shooked her head yes) Are we ok here?” he wanted to know.

“Well it depends doesn’t it? Are you going to keep fooling around on me? Are you going to find some whore to satisfy your needs when I’m not there Jon? Because if you are then no were not ok Jon but if you want to try and work things out and really stay celibate to one person then we’ll be ok.” She told him honestly.  

“Of course I do Baby. I asked you to marry me didn’t I? I let things get out of hand and I’m so sorry Baby I really am I didn’t mean to let them get that out of hand. I can make up excuses to you but that’s not going to make it right and I know it. I love you so much that’s why I came home to tell you this and so we could talk.” He explained to her as he took her hand.

“Yeah I guess you could have made excuses so why didn’t you?” she asked him wondering.

“Well I could have but then you would have probably found out anyway and then really hated me and I wasn’t going to take that chance. I thought it would be better if you heard the truth from me. Right?” he hoped.

Smiling, “Yeah I guess, so you came home just to tell me you fucked up? Not that you were driving the guys nuts like you said?” she asked him giving him the eye.

“Well maybe a little bit of both?” he grinned.

“Yeah right?” she told him as she started to get up but he stopped her. “Hey I want to get my tea.” She told him.

“Not quite yet. There’s a little matter of the makeup sex.” He told her as he wiggled his eyes at her.

“Oh really now and how did you come up with this?” she asked him with her sternest face.

Not knowing if she was kidding or not he thought he would just go with it. “Really? Well after a fight we always have makeup sex. And if I do say so myself we do it pretty well.” He sounded like a wounded little boy and she was really trying not to laugh at his little act.

“Oh my poor little baby. Just because you came clean to me doesn’t mean you’re getting some.” She told him smiling as she patted him on the cheek.

Well that did it for Jon. He knew right there she was giving it to him and not in the fun way either. So as she was about to get up he grabbed her and threw her down and laid one on her that curled her toes. To say she was surprised yes because she knew that he knew that she was still annoyed with him. So she tried to get up but he grabbed her arms and pinned them above her head. So she tried to speak but all it did was come out garbled. Finally he released her mouth after giving it a good once over as her head was spinning and then he started down her neck as she was trying to catch her breath. But as he was licking her neck and leaving little love bites down it to her collar bone to her shoulder and before he got to her breasts she was finally able to blurt out, “Um Jon, Jon…could we have a time out please?” she asked him all jumbled.

Jon was a little busy enjoying himself as he had waited all day and night for this so all she got for her trouble was a mumbled No as he continued what he was doing to her. She wasn’t very shocked that he wasn’t listening to her because she knew once he got into one of these moods there was no way of talking sense into him at the moment. Plus she was still having a hard time thinking straight anyway and it was becoming very hard for her to stay angry at him. He was now getting really annoyed with her shirt that was in his way to what was his goal. Eagerly he started to pull at her t-shirt to pull it off of her as it came roughly off of her head.

“Sorry Babe.” He told her breathing heavily now as he bent down and clamped on one of her nipples and sucked a little too hard as she let out a yelp. Again he told her sorry and licked and kissed it and sucked her breast a little more gently now as Ellie was sighing and giggling at the same time. When he heard her giggling he stopped and lifted his head with an inquisitive look and asked her, “El what’s so funny? I mean I’m trying to be all romantic here and you’re laughing at me?” he asked her curious and maybe his manhood a little bit bent.

Breathing heavy herself she looked at him and smiled sweetly. “Oh Sweetie I sorry but you are a little funny the way you’re going at me like this. It’s like you’ve never seen a woman in years. I mean I don’t want to fight again but after what you told me this is kind of funny all those beautiful women and now you’re ravishing me like I’m the last woman on earth. So yeah it’s kind of funny.” She told him still smiling.

He just looked at her in shock because she still didn’t get it. “Babe how many times do I have to tell you that I don’t care how you look. It’s what’s inside you that I love about you. And you are just as beautiful as those other women to me. You’re gorgeous and body wise ok you are a little fuller than those strippers but they have to be like that but you don’t and I love your body you ding-a-ling. You are the right size so stop putting yourself down please. Beside those strippers don’t have your breasts they’re all flat chested unlike you Baby. So could you please knock it off. You are a real woman that I love to pieces. And I’m so sorry that I haven’t shown you that but if you just give me half a chance I’ll show you right now.” He said to her anxiously.

“Oh am I stopping you from something?” she asked him as she smiled dirty at him.

“You know you’re killing me right?” he said to her as she was about to burst into laughter.

“I’m sorry I thought that you wanted to talk?” she asked him still smiling.

“You’re not funny and my balls are turning blue as we speak. So either you take off your pants or I’m ripping them off you your choice.” He told her with such a dark blue glare in his eyes that she knew he meant business.

“I will if you will?” she told him as she started to take them off ever so slowly. Jon’s was about to go mad with lack of blood going to both his brains and Ellie never seen him strip so fast in his life. He took her in his arms and showed her just how much he was sorry for what he did and just how much he loved her. He slowed down and loved every inch of her showing her that her body was more than he ever wanted. They fell asleep in each other’s arms for a few hours until Jon woke up so when he noticed it was still early enough he wasn’t going to let their time alone go to waste. So he started to nibble on her shoulder until she started to move around and when she turned in his arms and smiled at him she knew she was in trouble when she felt him poking at her abdomen. But no words were said as Jon just leaned in and started to kiss her tenderly and wrapping his arms around her as he took her to places again that she definitely didn’t mind riding out again. After about an hour had gone by and he fell sound asleep again Ellie was still awake. She was content and happy as she watched him sleep and very happy to have him back in their bed. But the only thing that was still bothering her was that they were fighting very easily lately. But the only good news was the she couldn’t hear the roughness in his voice that much anymore. Maybe those treatments were finally working. She knew before he headed back that she would have to speak to him about the fighting.    

She let Jon sleep for a while longer as she got dressed knowing that Jimmy would be coming home soon and she wanted to thank Jared for everything and get him out of the house before Jon saw him. For some reason he had gotten the wrong idea about him. Jared and Ben had been lifesavers for her since his Mother had been watching Jimmy from the school. Maybe the two of them should confront her before he goes back. She’ll have to take it up with him. She went into the kitchen to make some brownies for both her boys so they would be done before her son got home. In the meantime Jon was tossing and turning when he rolled over and realized that she wasn’t lying next to him. Sitting up and looking around the room he yelled out to her with no answer. Getting up and putting on his pants that were lying on the floor he then went into his dresser and took out a shirt and put that on. Walking downstairs barefoot he could hear something coming from the kitchen. When he entered the door way he saw her trying to load the dish washer.

Walking up behind her and wrapping his arms around her he gave her a start. “Oh God!” she yelped.

Nuzzling her ear, “Sorry Baby but you just looked too cute bent over this. It’s a good thing you aren’t wearing a dress.” He growled into her ear.

Giving her chills, “You are a dirty young man you know that.” She told him.

“Yeah I do. So when is Jimmy coming home?” he asked her.

Looking at her watch, “About another half hour why?” she asked him turning in his arms.

“Well…” he said as he looked at her.

“Are you kidding me? It hasn’t fallen off yet?” she asked him laughing.

“You’re not funny.” He told her as he slapped her ass.

“Stop that! After doing it all morning and mid-day please tell me you’re tired. Because I’m sore Sweetie. Give me a chance for my body to settle ok?” she asked him smiling and shaking her head,

“Babe why didn’t you tell me I was hurting you? I would have stopped.” He told her concern.

“That’s why I didn’t tell you. (he looked at her strangely) Ok let me explain it’s very easy I wanted you as much as you wanted me. And I didn’t get sore until we were almost thru so I could take it. Plus I was having my orgasms during it anyway so there was no way in hell I was going to tell you to stop. The good outweighed the bad you know what I mean? So we’re both at fault here we just couldn’t get enough of each other. But not a half hour before our son is to come home you silly little horny boy.” She told him as she kissed him on the nose.

“Oh ok I get it. I’ve been away for too long that’s all I have to go into my Dad role now.” He said staring into her hazel eyes.

“I like that Dad role.” She said back to him.

“So do I. I can’t wait to see him it’s been too long. Will Jared be here?” he asked trying hard not to look jealous.’’

“Yes he’s bringing Jimmy home from school. You do know there is nothing going on with him and I or Ben for that matter and who ever put that into your head is a moron.” She told.

Smiling weakly, “No nobody did just me I’m the moron. Sorry Ellie. I think it just bothered me that someone else was seeing my family more than I was. So it was easier to blame them than me you know?” he told her as he kissed her lightly on the lips.

“So are you ok with everything now because Jared will be here in less than twenty minutes.” She asked him and not wanting any trouble.

“Cross my heart I won’t start anything ok?” he promised her pouting.

So they waited together for their son to come home to surprise him with his Daddy.