I Confess

Looking her in the eyes he said, “Oh my God you know Alec he doesn’t know what the hell he’s saying when he’s drunk. He could have heard any of the girl’s say they were with me and bragging that they were doing me just to get some credit. They all were out to do me. I can’t believe you’re going by that.” He told her almost laughing at her.

Looking at him she couldn’t believe that he was trying not to laugh at her when she told him. “Are you getting a good laugh at this? Is this how it’s going to be? I explain to you how I feel or how I find things out and you laugh at me? I would never do that to you Jon. I would always hear you out then discuss it. But never make you feel foolish. Dinner’s ready if you want it.” She told him and left him standing in the middle of the bedroom.

He finished dressing and went down to the kitchen as he could smell the food coming from there. Ellie could cook some even thou they did hire a cook but she wasn’t on tonight. Walking in the oven was turned off and sitting on the counter was a chicken with veggies on the range and rice but no Ellie. He walked over to the Pantry and looked in there and that was empty too. So was the bathroom off the side. So he took a walk thru out the house she had to be somewhere. As he did he really liked what he saw. He couldn’t have liked it any better if he did this himself then when he walked into the music room. His mouth dropped as he looked around and saw what she did. Everything he would have put in here that he would have. He couldn’t believe what a wonderful job she did and she did it all for him. Leaving the Music room he went down the hall and as he was walking past this one door he heard some noise coming from it. So he quietly opened the door enough to peek in and saw Ellie working in there opening a box and setting some shelves up.

Opening the door wider he startled her. “Hey I’m sorry El I didn’t mean to scare you. You need help with that?” he asked her about the shelf.

Looking at him, “No I’m fine so did you eat?” she asked him?

“No I came looking for you first but it looked good. Why don’t you come back with me and we’ll talk over dinner ok?” he asked her as he looked around the room. “Babe is this room going to be what I think?”

“Yeah why? You going to make cracks about it? I figured there’s enough rooms in this place that I could have my own room.” She told him.

“No it’s fine really you know I don’t care you can have all the rooms you want. I saw the Music room thank you it’s beautiful Babe.” He told her not knowing if he should approach her.

“You like it? Good I was hoping you would. That’s why I need this and I know you’re going to put your recording studio in I didn’t think you would care if I had an Elvis room.” She told him.

“No I told you; you can have whatever you want. Now come on let’s go eat.” He said as he took her hand and they headed towards the kitchen.

Setting up their dinner at the kitchen table Jon decided he would start. “So Babe I’m sorry that I laughed at you upstairs I really didn’t mean to. So you want to ask me questions go ahead.” he told her while taking a bite.

“Jon I think you know my question did you or did you not have sex with any of those strippers?” she asked him out right.

“No not sex just oral. And it was on their part to me.” he finally told her but knew if he told her the entire truth she would leave him in an instant.

Pushing away her dinner, “So they did oral on you?” she asked him as he shooked his head yes. “Even thou you knew how I felt about that?” Again Jon shooked his head yes. Remember what her brother told her she was really trying very hard to put herself in his shoes and feeling the way he would have being away from his loved ones for long periods of times. “So I guess phone sex with me wasn’t doing it anymore for you huh?” she asked him a little angrily.

“El what do you want me to say to that? Of course not I loved our phone sex and I love our love making together. (getting up and walking over to her) I’ve never ever had a more loving, sexier, beautiful, and adventurous partner than you before or ever will because I want you to be by my side til the day I die don’t you get that?” he said to her as he knelt down beside her.

“I thought I did Jon but I’m not so sure now. I love you so much that it hurts sometimes but if you need more than I can give you…” she started to say as she teared up.

“No, no that’s not what I said. You are more than I’II ever want. You said you talked to your brother what did you mean by that? Joe? Because he doesn’t like me, what did he tell you to leave me? He told you to leave me didn’t he?” He asked her getting pissed.

Looking at him as she was now getting angry at him, “No Jon he didn’t. He actually explained to me why guys cheat or don’t cheat but get some like you did. And told me to cut you some slack. So don’t blame Joey he’s a fucking guy and sided with you. But he did tell me to go with my heart so…Oh and that if he needed me he would kick your ass for me any time. That he would love to do.” She told him getting up from the table as Jon stood up as well.  

“Yeah I bet he would. Sorry I didn’t know he did that. Did it help you any to talk to him?” he asked her while he had his fingers crossed.

“What that it was ok for you to cheat on me? No it didn’t. Because stupid me somewhere in the back of my head I still didn’t think you would do that to me. Boy was I naïve huh?” she said to him rolling her eyes.

“Ellie I made a huge mistake I admit that ok? But it was only oral sex it wasn’t like I was making love to them.” He told her as he tried to touch her as she moved away from him.

“How can I make you understand this oral sex is sex. It’s still an intimate act. We do it and believe me for me you can’t get more intimate than putting your God Damn face in someone’s private area’s Jon!” she loudly told him.

He stood there knowing damn well she was right and feeling like a heel on top of it. But he had to tell her something or she would find out that it was more than oral sex he was having with those strippers. It wasn’t that he didn’t love her, he loved her more than anything but life on the road was lonely and she couldn’t be there for him twenty-four seven. And he figured what she didn’t know wouldn’t hurt her, until now.

“Ellie I didn’t do this to hurt you I would rather cut off my right arm than hurt you. You know I could have lied to you you know but I didn’t I came clean doesn’t that count for anything?” he asked her giving her those royal blue eyes of his.

She looked him straight into those royal blue eyes of his and told him, “I don’t know Jon, Michael cheated on me all the time and he just expected me to accept it. You seem to want me to accept it to. Then what are you going to walk all over me too?” she asked him as he looked at her shocked.

“How the hell can you even compare me to that pig!” he yelled at her as he was insulted at her statement.

“Well easy that’s how Michael started with the little things like promising me he wouldn’t be doing it again then telling me this or that. Oh and when I caught him again and accused him after he hit me and said he wouldn’t do that again and Joe and Chick had to take me to the hospital one night when he nearly killed me. Oh right you saw my back.” She spit at him.”

“Oh My God! You think I’m going to hit you!” he yelled back at her.

“You didn’t get what I’m saying do you? If I let you slide on one thing then you’ll slide on other things Jon! They just snowball like Michael did. Because if I left him when he cheated on me in the first place when everyone told me too I wouldn’t have had to go thru the thing I did. So my question to you is Are you going to put me thru the shit he did! Because if you are then I’m taking Jimmy and getting the hell out of here now!” she told him as tears ran down her face.

Jon was frozen where he stood. He really didn’t think what he had done would affect her the way it had.  He just wasn’t thinking. Well he was but with the wrong body part. Finally being able to move he walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her tight as she cried into his chest.

“Baby I’m so sorry I didn’t realize…I’m such a jerk…we can work this out I know we can please don’t lose faith in me…I know I can make this right if you just give me half a chance.” he told her rubbing her back while she still cried in his arms as tears were falling down his cheeks. They stood there for a little while when finally Ellie started to pull away from him. Her face was red and puffy especially her eyes as they were really red.  His eyes were puffy and red.

“I’m not really hungry and my head is really killing me so I’m going upstairs and take something for it and lay down so could you put the food in the frig for me?” she asked him.

“Yeah sure no problem you go rest and I’ll be up in a little bit ok?” he told her.

Jon put the food away and decided to take a little tour of the house so that way it would give her some time to relax and get her headache under control and to calm down some.

Ellie went back to their bedroom and put on her P.J.’s, took her med’s and crawled into bed. Her head was throbbing so bad she just wanted to cut it off. The darkness helped some and she tried to slow her breathing down some also. She also tried to mediate to see if that would help. It helped to a point that she fell asleep. So a half hour later Jon went upstairs to check on her and found her sound asleep. Well that went his night that he had planned when he got home. So he went back down stairs and maybe he could find something on t.v. to watch. His studio wasn’t up and running but he did get bored enough he could always go into the music room and goof around in there. He went into the liquor cabinet to see if she had it stock yet but no she hadn’t just his luck. No booze in the house. Great. This is going to be one hell of a long night.

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Morning came and Jon woke up in the chair in the Den with the t.v. still on.  His back was killing him as he was in a sitting position all night. He got up slowly as he had his hand on his lower back and stretching as he got up. Walking over to the t.v. he turned it off and walked in the kitchen to start his coffee. The aroma from the coffee pot helped him a little to wake up but mostly when he poured himself a cup and that hot dark golden liquid hit him that was what finally help to wake him up and give him the nerve to go upstairs to see how Ellie was this morning.

Walking up the stairs and then down the hall he approached their bedroom. Taking a deep breath he turned the knob and opened the door. Walking in he sees her asleep in their bed. Walking over to her side of the bed and sitting next to her he couldn’t help but stare at her. He noticed that all the puffiness was gone and how beautiful she looked laying there. Caressing her cheek and arm he was thinking of the time when he talked her into going out with him finally and when he kissed her for the first time. He knew right then and there that she had his heart.

Slowly her eyes started to flutter open and saw him staring down at her. “Hi.” She said groggily.

“Hi sleepy head. How are you feeling?” he asked her concerned.

“A little bit better. I woke a little while ago to take something else so yeah I feel a bit better.” She told him.

“That’s good, you want something like your tea?” he asked her.

“That’s ok I can get up and get it myself but thanks.” She told him as she sat up.

“Ok…can I ask you something? (she shooked her head yes) Are we ok here?” he wanted to know.

“Well it depends doesn’t it? Are you going to keep fooling around on me? Are you going to find some whore to satisfy your needs when I’m not there Jon? Because if you are then no were not ok Jon but if you want to try and work things out and really stay celibate to one person then we’ll be ok.” She told him honestly.  

“Of course I do Baby. I asked you to marry me didn’t I? I let things get out of hand and I’m so sorry Baby I really am I didn’t mean to let them get that out of hand. I can make up excuses to you but that’s not going to make it right and I know it. I love you so much that’s why I came home to tell you this and so we could talk.” He explained to her as he took her hand.

“Yeah I guess you could have made excuses so why didn’t you?” she asked him wondering.

“Well I could have but then you would have probably found out anyway and then really hated me and I wasn’t going to take that chance. I thought it would be better if you heard the truth from me. Right?” he hoped.

Smiling, “Yeah I guess, so you came home just to tell me you fucked up? Not that you were driving the guys nuts like you said?” she asked him giving him the eye.

“Well maybe a little bit of both?” he grinned.

“Yeah right?” she told him as she started to get up but he stopped her. “Hey I want to get my tea.” She told him.

“Not quite yet. There’s a little matter of the makeup sex.” He told her as he wiggled his eyes at her.

“Oh really now and how did you come up with this?” she asked him with her sternest face.

Not knowing if she was kidding or not he thought he would just go with it. “Really? Well after a fight we always have makeup sex. And if I do say so myself we do it pretty well.” He sounded like a wounded little boy and she was really trying not to laugh at his little act.

“Oh my poor little baby. Just because you came clean to me doesn’t mean you’re getting some.” She told him smiling as she patted him on the cheek.

Well that did it for Jon. He knew right there she was giving it to him and not in the fun way either. So as she was about to get up he grabbed her and threw her down and laid one on her that curled her toes. To say she was surprised yes because she knew that he knew that she was still annoyed with him. So she tried to get up but he grabbed her arms and pinned them above her head. So she tried to speak but all it did was come out garbled. Finally he released her mouth after giving it a good once over as her head was spinning and then he started down her neck as she was trying to catch her breath. But as he was licking her neck and leaving little love bites down it to her collar bone to her shoulder and before he got to her breasts she was finally able to blurt out, “Um Jon, Jon…could we have a time out please?” she asked him all jumbled.

Jon was a little busy enjoying himself as he had waited all day and night for this so all she got for her trouble was a mumbled No as he continued what he was doing to her. She wasn’t very shocked that he wasn’t listening to her because she knew once he got into one of these moods there was no way of talking sense into him at the moment. Plus she was still having a hard time thinking straight anyway and it was becoming very hard for her to stay angry at him. He was now getting really annoyed with her shirt that was in his way to what was his goal. Eagerly he started to pull at her t-shirt to pull it off of her as it came roughly off of her head.

“Sorry Babe.” He told her breathing heavily now as he bent down and clamped on one of her nipples and sucked a little too hard as she let out a yelp. Again he told her sorry and licked and kissed it and sucked her breast a little more gently now as Ellie was sighing and giggling at the same time. When he heard her giggling he stopped and lifted his head with an inquisitive look and asked her, “El what’s so funny? I mean I’m trying to be all romantic here and you’re laughing at me?” he asked her curious and maybe his manhood a little bit bent.

Breathing heavy herself she looked at him and smiled sweetly. “Oh Sweetie I sorry but you are a little funny the way you’re going at me like this. It’s like you’ve never seen a woman in years. I mean I don’t want to fight again but after what you told me this is kind of funny all those beautiful women and now you’re ravishing me like I’m the last woman on earth. So yeah it’s kind of funny.” She told him still smiling.

He just looked at her in shock because she still didn’t get it. “Babe how many times do I have to tell you that I don’t care how you look. It’s what’s inside you that I love about you. And you are just as beautiful as those other women to me. You’re gorgeous and body wise ok you are a little fuller than those strippers but they have to be like that but you don’t and I love your body you ding-a-ling. You are the right size so stop putting yourself down please. Beside those strippers don’t have your breasts they’re all flat chested unlike you Baby. So could you please knock it off. You are a real woman that I love to pieces. And I’m so sorry that I haven’t shown you that but if you just give me half a chance I’ll show you right now.” He said to her anxiously.

“Oh am I stopping you from something?” she asked him as she smiled dirty at him.

“You know you’re killing me right?” he said to her as she was about to burst into laughter.

“I’m sorry I thought that you wanted to talk?” she asked him still smiling.

“You’re not funny and my balls are turning blue as we speak. So either you take off your pants or I’m ripping them off you your choice.” He told her with such a dark blue glare in his eyes that she knew he meant business.

“I will if you will?” she told him as she started to take them off ever so slowly. Jon’s was about to go mad with lack of blood going to both his brains and Ellie never seen him strip so fast in his life. He took her in his arms and showed her just how much he was sorry for what he did and just how much he loved her. He slowed down and loved every inch of her showing her that her body was more than he ever wanted. They fell asleep in each other’s arms for a few hours until Jon woke up so when he noticed it was still early enough he wasn’t going to let their time alone go to waste. So he started to nibble on her shoulder until she started to move around and when she turned in his arms and smiled at him she knew she was in trouble when she felt him poking at her abdomen. But no words were said as Jon just leaned in and started to kiss her tenderly and wrapping his arms around her as he took her to places again that she definitely didn’t mind riding out again. After about an hour had gone by and he fell sound asleep again Ellie was still awake. She was content and happy as she watched him sleep and very happy to have him back in their bed. But the only thing that was still bothering her was that they were fighting very easily lately. But the only good news was the she couldn’t hear the roughness in his voice that much anymore. Maybe those treatments were finally working. She knew before he headed back that she would have to speak to him about the fighting.    

She let Jon sleep for a while longer as she got dressed knowing that Jimmy would be coming home soon and she wanted to thank Jared for everything and get him out of the house before Jon saw him. For some reason he had gotten the wrong idea about him. Jared and Ben had been lifesavers for her since his Mother had been watching Jimmy from the school. Maybe the two of them should confront her before he goes back. She’ll have to take it up with him. She went into the kitchen to make some brownies for both her boys so they would be done before her son got home. In the meantime Jon was tossing and turning when he rolled over and realized that she wasn’t lying next to him. Sitting up and looking around the room he yelled out to her with no answer. Getting up and putting on his pants that were lying on the floor he then went into his dresser and took out a shirt and put that on. Walking downstairs barefoot he could hear something coming from the kitchen. When he entered the door way he saw her trying to load the dish washer.

Walking up behind her and wrapping his arms around her he gave her a start. “Oh God!” she yelped.

Nuzzling her ear, “Sorry Baby but you just looked too cute bent over this. It’s a good thing you aren’t wearing a dress.” He growled into her ear.

Giving her chills, “You are a dirty young man you know that.” She told him.

“Yeah I do. So when is Jimmy coming home?” he asked her.

Looking at her watch, “About another half hour why?” she asked him turning in his arms.

“Well…” he said as he looked at her.

“Are you kidding me? It hasn’t fallen off yet?” she asked him laughing.

“You’re not funny.” He told her as he slapped her ass.

“Stop that! After doing it all morning and mid-day please tell me you’re tired. Because I’m sore Sweetie. Give me a chance for my body to settle ok?” she asked him smiling and shaking her head,

“Babe why didn’t you tell me I was hurting you? I would have stopped.” He told her concern.

“That’s why I didn’t tell you. (he looked at her strangely) Ok let me explain it’s very easy I wanted you as much as you wanted me. And I didn’t get sore until we were almost thru so I could take it. Plus I was having my orgasms during it anyway so there was no way in hell I was going to tell you to stop. The good outweighed the bad you know what I mean? So we’re both at fault here we just couldn’t get enough of each other. But not a half hour before our son is to come home you silly little horny boy.” She told him as she kissed him on the nose.

“Oh ok I get it. I’ve been away for too long that’s all I have to go into my Dad role now.” He said staring into her hazel eyes.

“I like that Dad role.” She said back to him.

“So do I. I can’t wait to see him it’s been too long. Will Jared be here?” he asked trying hard not to look jealous.’’

“Yes he’s bringing Jimmy home from school. You do know there is nothing going on with him and I or Ben for that matter and who ever put that into your head is a moron.” She told.

Smiling weakly, “No nobody did just me I’m the moron. Sorry Ellie. I think it just bothered me that someone else was seeing my family more than I was. So it was easier to blame them than me you know?” he told her as he kissed her lightly on the lips.

“So are you ok with everything now because Jared will be here in less than twenty minutes.” She asked him and not wanting any trouble.

“Cross my heart I won’t start anything ok?” he promised her pouting.

So they waited together for their son to come home to surprise him with his Daddy.

Surprise I'm Home

A couple of days had gone by and Ellie hadn’t heard from Jon which wasn’t unusually because if he was busy or annoyed with her he would do this. She and Sam were finishing one of the other bedrooms upstairs. The bathroom was done the way Ellie wanted it so she was very happy with that. She was just waiting on the shower stall for the master bathroom as it was a special order. They had the one for the one in the hall but not the one for that master bath which she was kinda bummed about. She really wanted to get that installed so she could use it. Carl Sam’s assistant was working on the downstairs and getting that ready for her and fixing the little things. Carl was running around with his head chopped off as he was checking his clipboard to see what else had to be done. The kitchen basically was finished as all the appliances were delivered and placed and Sam had made a list of all the proper silverware, plates, etc. to be added so she had all the enmities.

The same for the living room, den and dinning room when she picked all the furniture and accessories so if Jon did come home the house would be done. Samantha lived up to her name and certainly earned her commission on this job. In under a month and a half she had decorated this house to what Ellie wanted it to be.

A car drove up to the gate and plugged in the code to it and when it opened he drove up the driveway and parked his car. Meanwhile inside Ben saw the monitor go off and when he looked into it he saw the car driving in and watched at who could be entering the premises with the code and not letting him or Ellie know that they were coming over. He knew it wasn’t Jared because it wasn’t his type of vehicle. Who the hell did he know that drove a Porsche? I mean if it was Jon wouldn’t he have called Ellie to let her know that he was coming home? Well he got his answer and apparently not as Jon stepped out of the vehicle with his bag. Well Ben wasn’t very happy about this and he knew Ellie probably didn’t know anything about this either. So he headed on down to the front door to see why Jon didn’t call knowing that he knew what they were going thru here.

Walking up to the front door Jon tried the handle but found it locked. He reached in his pocket to take out his keys again to unlock the door when all of a sudden the door opened and Ben was standing there staring at Jon.

 “Well are you just going to stare at me or are you going to tell me what the hell you’re doing here Jon? Why didn’t you call first? You do know that we’ve got security all over the place right?” Ben scolded him.

Jon stood there staring back at him annoyed at being scolded. “Funny last thing I knew this is my house. I didn’t know that I had to call first before I came home to it. Now move.” He told him pissed.

Moving aside Ben then said to him, “You could have given Ellie a call telling her that you were on your way. She has been a wreck since the last time she talked to you.” He told him pissed.

Looking at him like he had some nerve to talk to him this way, “Who the hell are you? And why the hell is she talking to you guys about us?” he wanted to know.

“Well who else is she going to talk to she doesn’t have you or any other friends here. I mean I get it Jon but you know what she’s going thru and she’s scared and with you driving up like this and not telling her what were you going to do sneak up on her and scared the crap out of her?” Ben asked him angrily.   

Thinking for a second he knew Ben was right. “No I guess you’re right I wasn’t thinking ok? I just needed to see her plus we need to talk. So you guys need to stay out of this got it.” Jon told him. “So where is she?”

“She’s around I believe she’s upstairs with Sam.” He told him snickering.

 “Sam who the hell is Sam?” Jon wanted to know.

“The decorator that she hired I thought she told you?” Ben said to him smiling.

“No she told me that she hired one of the best decorating companying’s around but…” Jon nearly chocked.

“Yeah Sam and Carl the assistant. Carl’s been doing the downstairs as Sam has been doing the upstairs.” Ben just couldn’t help himself.

Jon just looked at Ben pissed and under his breath said “Like hell he is.” And went up the stairs in search of his fiance.

Sam and Ellie were back in the master bedroom because Ellie did have a question on the tables for the decks and wanted to get umbrellas for them but wanted to know if that would be a good idea or should they get a canopy instead.

“Well the sun doesn’t really hit the back of the house Hon so I don’t think you would need either. And I don’t think you would be sitting out here in the rain so no you wouldn’t need either.” Sam told her.

“Ok that sounds good to me. But I’m still going to need the backing for those dark curtains ok. I can’t have sunlight come thru them and the backing still hasn’t come in yet. I need them on the doors so I can open them if I want to or close them when I’m having one of my attacks. So if you can check on those for me I would appreciate it very much. Plus the windows those room darkening shades. I would love if you get them in black.” She told her.

“Don't worry those should be in day after tomorrow I had to special order them “she told her. “Oh by the way I have an idea I wanted to show you in the closet.” Sam told her as they entered it.

As they were in there Jon walked in looking around when he heard Ellie laughing from the walk-in closet. As he started walking over Sam walked out still laughing as she ran into Jon.

“Well Hello there handsome. I don’t think we’ve met I’m Samantha and you would have to be Jon.” She told him smiling and still trying to catch her breath.

Jon who is a little shocked at the moment asks her, “Are you Sam?”

“Well among other things yes, why?” she asked him curiously.

Shaking his head, “No reason other than I going to kill someone.” He told her smiling when Ellie came out.

“Sam are you talking to someone?” she asked when she froze in her tracks.

“Hey Baby surprise.” Jon said to her.

“Jon? What are you doing here?” she asked him surprised and not being able to think straight.

“I live here.” He told her confused.

“I’ll leave you two alone so I’ll be downstairs with Carl and see where he stands.” She told them and left the room.

After she left Ellie walked over to him and took his hand. “Jon I didn’t mean to sound so well…I’m so glad your home I really am.” She told him as there were tears starting to form in her eyes. “You just took me by surprise. Why didn’t you call me that you were coming home? I would have had the house empty when you got here.” She told him playing with his jacket cuff.

“Because I wanted it to be a surprise silly. I forgot you were doing the house over because my mind was somewhere else.” He told her as his arms wrapped around her waist.

“Yeah well I know where your mind was at. That’s why I would have cleared everyone out. You don’t think I don’t want you either?” she told him kissing him on his cheek.

“Well I wasn’t sure after the phone call we had. We didn’t exactly end the conversation on great terms Babe.” He told her as he drew small circles on the lower part of her back.

“Yeah well I wasn’t too happy with our conversation either but I’ve had time to think about it. I’m sorry I know it wasn’t your fault that she was a bitch and jealous that you have a girlfriend and couldn’t wait to tell me that you were fooling around on me. I guess I’ll have to get used to that huh?” she told him as she put her head on his chest.

Holding her tight and looking down towards the floor over her he just thought about the last few days as he listened to what she said. His conversation with Richie was also going through his mind as well. “Baby is there any way you can get rid of these people so we can just be alone until Jimmy gets home?” he asked her.

Looking up at him, “Give me five minutes and I’ll be right back.” She told him smiling and left to go down stairs.

While she was downstairs Jon walked around the bedroom seeing that he hasn’t seen it since he left for Vancouver. He did notice the shades of purple in the bedroom and he smiled, almost laughed. When he noticed the curtains were dark purple he just shooked his head smiling. He thought whatever made her happy as long as it wasn’t neon he didn’t care. He went into the walk-in closet and saw they put some extra selves in which he liked. Then he walked into the bathroom and saw that that shower stall wasn’t finished yet but everything else seemed done. He wanted to see the rest of the house but he had other ideas in mind. He came out as she came back into the bedroom.

“Hey Babe you really have done a great job with everything I’ve seen so far. But um when are they going to finish the bathroom stall?” he asked curious.

“Oh that in a few days hopefully because it’s on back order. I had to order it special.” She told him sitting in one of the chairs.

“Ordered it special? Why what’s so special about it?” he laughed.

“The design plus it’s smoked so you can’t see thru it why?” she asked him seriously.

“Oh I’m sorry El I was just teasing.” He told her seeing that she was dead serious.

“No it’s ok I just thought you gave me free range that’s all.” She told him looking a little down.

“No Baby I did I wasn’t making fun of you I’m sorry I love what you have done in here really.” He told her getting down on his knees and taking her hands in his. “Baby come on you’re doing a great job really. You know I love the color purple.” He told her kissing her hands.

“Well are you going to love it when I get the backing for the curtains and the shades for the French doors because I already have the shades for the windows. So when they get here It’s going to be like a morgue in here.” She told him not know how well he’ll like it that dark. 

“Ellie you know I don’t like light either so why are you worried that I would be worried about that? If we want the sun and light to come in we’ll just pull open the curtains ok? And if you’re not feeling good we’ll keep them closed. I really don’t see a problem with it. And what I seen downstairs so far everything looked great.” He told her.

“Well what did you see down there?” she wanted to know.

“Ah the entry way and the stairway up here?” he smiled as he moved his hands up and down her arms.

“That’s nothing Jon. So do you want to go around the house and see what’s done? It’s mainly done really except some of the little things and what’s on back order. So Samantha and her crew will still be around for a while.” She told him.

“Well about that can you not have them around for the say next three days.” He asked her smirking.

“Why?” she asked him completely not getting what he was asking her.

“Really El? Because that’s how long I got off from work this week. Desmond said I could have it off if it would stop me from being such a jackass to everyone.” Jon told her making an I’m sorry face.

“You were being a jackass to everyone why? You and I were fighting why were you being a jerk to everyone there? Oh wait a minute you said you weren’t taking those stimulants Jon.” she shot at him.

“I’m not I promised you I wouldn’t. You know how I get when I stew for sometime I may take it out on others.” He told her trying to look all innocent. “Or at least I’m told.”

“Really you?” she said trying not to giggle.

“Alright I get it. So before the guys lynched me I asked on Richie’s recommendation that I come here and see if we were ok. So are we ok that is?” he asked her with his puppy dog eyes.

“Jon we will always probably fight. Especially in the business you’re in and I’m going to have a lot of questions because I’m going to hear all sorts of stupid things and yes they are going to bother me and if I don’t ask you about them they’re just going to eat me up inside. So you’re going to have to understand that yes I have to question you about them and I’m sorry about that because it’s not that I don’t trust you but you have to put yourself in my shoes. If a hundred people keep telling you something about me wouldn’t you feel that you would have to ask me about it?” she asked him.

Jon thought about that for a moment and when he did he knew she had a good point on that. Yeah he would do the same thing but he may not be so nice about it. “Yeah Babe I would. I’m sorry I put you in this. This is my dream not yours.” He told her.

Smiling, “Jon anything you do is what I want you to do. And you’ve been doing this before well more professionally now before I came back into your life. But I knew this is what you wanted to do. I just need to get used to it and what comes with it. But when that girl told me where you were and what you were doing well it really hit home and like a slap in the face.” She told him a little defeated.

“So we do need to talk about this?” Jon asked her.

“Yeah we do.” She said as she put her head down.

“Ok when does Jimmy get home?” he asked her.

“Well he’ll be home in a couple of hours. Jared will be bringing him. Oh and that damn Principle so help me God.” She said.

“If you want I’ll talk to her for you and set her straight.” Jon said.

“No not yet I’ll let you know. You hungry?” she asked him.

“Yeah I am but I could go for something else first?” he told her.

“I don’t think so Jon.” she told him solemnly.

“You want to talk first ok. But um how are we going to talk with Jimmy here interrupting us constantly?” he asked her.

“Well I guess I could get the Sambora’s to look after him tonight. I’ll call Joan right now and see if she can take him for the night and have Jared sleep over.” She told him.

“Oh that’s right Jared is staying over I almost forgot about that.” He said sarcastically.

“Hey he’s been a life saver to us. I’d be a wreck if he wasn’t taking Jimmy to school Jon.” she told him as she got up.

“You know I know my Mom isn’t apparently all there right now and I’ll take care of her since I’m home but she would never hurt Jimmy.” He told her.

“Really? Well she would scare the hell out of him wouldn’t she?” Ellie asked him pissed.

“Ok I’m sorry again. I guess we’re not doing to good here are we?” he asked her.

“No I guess not. Look I’ll call Joan and have her take Jimmy tonight then we can start putting things right ok?” she told Jon. He agreed as he went down the hall to take a shower. It didn’t take her long to make the arrangements for Jared to take Jimmy over to the Sambora’s for the night. They loved to have him seeing they didn’t have any of their own and loved Jimmy as their own. She then made another phone call to Samantha and left a message asking her to wait a few days seeing that Jon was going to be home for a few days and they needed the time to themselves and she would need her back in three days. She then went upstairs to see what Jon wanted next to eat something or if he want to rest before dinner. But when she entered their bedroom there he stood in nothing but a towel wrap around his waist. She just froze and gulped as it had been a while since she had seen him like this and forgot how great he looked. ‘Oh Boy’ she said quietly.

He was over by the bed with his bag going thru it to find something to wear when he heard her walk in and mumbled something.

Turning around and looking at her, “Hey Babe what did you say?” he asked her.

“Me? Nothing so feel better now?” she asked him trying not to gawk at him like one of those stupid groupies.

“Yeah I do nice and clean.” He told her as he walked up to her. “What about you? Feel more relaxed about me being here?” he asked her.

Looking at him strange, “What do you mean by that?” she wanted to know.

“You’ve been how can I put this far away since I got home and I need to know how I can fix this.” he told her.

“Well stay in that towel may help.” She told him with a wide grin.

“Really now? Is that all I am to you is a piece of meat?” he asked her grinning.

“Well I didn’t want to tell you that was the real reason I was staying with you was because of your body but…”she giggled.

“And here I thought it was because it was going to be my fame and fortune oh and my money.” He said taking her in his arms.

“Nope sorry I go for looks Baby!” she told him and took him by surprise and grabbed the towel and yanked!

“Hey! What the hell!” he yelled as he jumped back and stood in front of her stark naked as she laughed hysterically.

“When did it bother you to be naked Dear?” she asked him all innocently.

“Oh so were going to play it this way are we?” he said walking again slowly towards her.

“No, no, no you need to put on your sweats and I need to know if you want something to eat or if you want to rest before we talk. So what will it be?” she asked him.   

“Are you kidding me?” he asked her all revved up.

“Nope.” She said shaking her head.

“So let me get this straight we’re not going to have sex until we talk right?” he asked her while he was putting on his sweats.

“Yeah that sounds about right.” She told him.

“Then why don’t we just get to talking before I burst ok?” he told her as he sat on the edge of the bed.

“You’ve got to be kidding me right? You think it’s going to be that easy” she asked him.

“No I don’t but whether it’s bad or good I just want it over with it ok.” he told her as he was now getting bored with this whole thing.

“Really now so you just came home to what fuck my brains out because you got bored with the bimbos in Vancouver?” she asked him.

“Oh for crying out loud. Are we really going to start this again Ellie? I didn’t screw anybody there. How many times do I have to tell you.” He said to her annoyed.

“I thought that you said on the phone that you want to talk about something and when you got here earlier so what happened Jon huh? I still want to talk still need to talk why do you all of a sudden feel that everything is fine?” she asked him.

“Because we were just coming on to each other so I thought well you know we could spend sometime getting reacquainted with each other is there anything wrong with that?” he asked her.

“No Honey there isn’t but when we had an argument like we did before you came home like we did we need to clear the air because I have some questions I need answered and I’m not too sure that I’m going to like it.” She told him not to happy.

                “Fine but you’re going to feel foolish you know.” He told smirking.

“We’ll see about that. How long have you’ve been going to the strip club Jon.” she asked him.

“A week after we started there ok. It’s just an outlet from being locked up in the studio all day Babe that’s all. The guys are the ones that interact with them alright. I just go with them for the shows and to drink and relax that’s it.” He told her which most of it was true.

“Really so you just sit there and just watch that’s it. No touching is that right?” she asked him doubtfully.

“Baby I told you yes I go and watch and talk with the girls, have a few drinks and then go back to the apartment and do it again the next day. Now why don’t you tell me about Ben and Jared here all the time ok?” Jon asked her as he was now questioning her.

Shaking her head no she told him, “No we haven’t finished with you yet. Because remember I told you that I called The Blue Lagoon asking about you. Well when I did Alec must of heard that I was on the phone and boy was he drunk because he grabbed the phone, well he told me you couldn’t come to the phone because you were in a private session with one of the girls and couldn’t get to the phone because you were in a compromising position and that you needed it badly because you were being such a prick to everyone and that this should help calm you down since sex always does. Oh and not to tell his girl she’s not to know. I told him not to worry my lips were sealed.” She told him as she stared him down.

He sat there not knowing what to say to her or what to do. He had to come up with something really fast.

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They were still sitting when Richie said to him, “It’s nice to see you laughing Kidd.”  

“Yeah well it was a nice thought. But I know she’s not going to go for it.” Jon said sadly as reality set in.

“We need to get back to work. Do you think we can continue with things or do you want to call it a day? It’s up to you.” Richie told him.

“No let’s get back to work I can try her later. I really need to dive right into this and try to forget a few things right now. Let’s go.” Jon said as he got up and Richie followed. They worked until late that night then the other guys went off to the club as Jon went back to the apartment.

At the club the guys got settled and were watching the show when a couple of the girls joined them. Kelly the one that was hanging with Jon the most asked where he was.

Alec the gentleman he is came right out and told her. “He went back to the apartment. He had to call his girlfriend right? Had to smooth things over I guess he’s so pussy whipped it’s pathetic.” Alec laughed.

“Shut the fuck up Alec you no nothing.” Dave told him as the girls were giggling. Richie just glared at them.

“Well I don’t know why he’s so upset about the girl back home for. If she loved him why isn’t she here taking care of him instead of him here every night watching us? I mean granted I’ve been trying to get him in bed instead of doing high school crap with him. With his looks and bod I bet he’s a dyno mo in bed.” Kelly said smiling and almost drooling.

Looking at her and shaking his head Richie said, “He has his reasons and if he wanted you to know he would have told you.”

“Well what is she a dog or something?” she asked him.

Well Richie wanted to blow up at her but he didn’t. “No of course not. She‘s beautiful and she has the kindest most loving heart. She intelligent and strong, driven doesn’t put up with anyone’s crap especially his and she’ a great Mom.” He told her with this look in his eye as the guys just looked at him in shock.

“Ah Rich is there anything you want to tell us?” Dave asked him.

Richie just looked at them confused. “No why?”

“No reason.” Dave said.

“Um yes reason did you just hear how he described her or was I the only one?” Alec said.

“Shut up Alec will deal with this later not here.” Tico told him. Well Alec saw Tico’s face and shut the hell up real fast.

At first Richie didn’t catch on what was going on until Tico yelled at Alec then he realized what he had said. “Oh God Tico it’s not what you think I’m not…” but Tico cut him off.

“Not now Richie we will discuss this later!” Tico told him in a calming but stern voice. Richie shut right up seeing he didn’t want to make matters worse. But as far as he was concern he was not in love with Ellie. He wouldn’t do that again to Jon seeing what it did to him the last time. But the way Diane had put it to him she wasn’t in love with him and felt that he wasn’t in love with her and being high and drunk at the time didn’t help either.

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Back at the apartment it was quiet so it would be easier to talk. Jon got a drink and sat by the phone and tried calling her number several times but never quite finished as he kept hanging up. He was never like this with any other girl before. Maybe because he never cared about another girl like this before. Finally he gathered up the courage to finish the whole number and let it ring and ring and ring. What he didn’t realize was it was real late there so when the phone did pick up there was a very tired voice on the other end of it. “Hello?”

“Ellie? It’s Jon did I wake you?” he asked her.

Looking at her clock it read one-ten a.m. “What the hell do you think?” she told him in an attitude.

“Oh Baby I’m sorry but we worked late into the night and then I came back to the apartment to call you.” he explained to her.

“Before or after the strip club?” she asked him.

“I didn’t go tonight. I just told you I came back to the apartment to call you.” He tried to sound calm.

“Well don’t I feel special then. What do you want?” she asked him now sitting up.

Taking a deep, “Well you hung up on me the last time we talked so I thought I’d try again.” He told her taking a gulp.

“Well you do know it’s very late and you woke me up so I really don’t feel like talking right now. So I’m going back to bed. So I suggest you do the same thing. Oh and tell whoever your sharing your bed with you like to sleep on the right.” She told him sarcastically.

“Ok you see right there we need to talk! I’m not sleeping with anyone Ellie! I’m here all alone right now. Where the hell are you getting all these ideas that I’m cheating on you?” he demanded to know.

“Oh I don’t know that receptionist for one. And then I call the Blue Lagoon and they told me that a bunch of American rockers have been in for about a month watching the girls and have been associating with them every night.” She told him pissed.

“The club told you that?” he asked her shocked.

“Yeah believe me I’ve learned a lot being around you Jon. And having the security team here. You learn a lot of tips.” She told him.

“El ok you want to know the truth? I’ll tell you but I’m not going to tell you over the phone ok? I want to tell you face to face are you ok with that?” he asked her.

She thought about it for a minute then said, “I don’t know Jon I’m not sure that I can leave Jimmy here with your Mom stalking him. I just don’t trust her.” She told him unsure.

“I get that believe me. Why can’t you bring him with you? The guys can babysit him while we talk right?” he asked her hoping.  

“Not that I’m that over protective Jon but are you nuts? They can’t watch themselves. No I’m not bringing him into that den of iniquity sorry I just can’t do that Jon.” She told him upset.

“Baby I get that but I can’t come home right now you do understand that right? I don’t want to talk to you over the damn phone about this because I need to see your face and your reaction so I can handle you when you hear me tell you everything.” Jon told her.

Well when Ellie heard him say handle her that didn’t go over that well. “Handle me Jon? You want to handle me? How are you going to do that Jackass! Please explain this to me.” She asked him.

Jon thought for a second. Did he say handle her? Oh shit! “Oh did I say handle you?” he asked her holding his breath.

“Yes you did.” She told him.

“That was a bad choice of words. I’m sorry for that. But I do need to see you when we talk Babe because it would be easier when I tell you why we’re going there and stuff. Please Baby I just really need you here ok?” he asked her.

“What about your Mother?” she asked him.

“What about her? Look Jimmy will be safe because he’ll be at the Sambora’s and Jared will be by his side the entire time right? So he couldn’t be in better hands Baby. And if she did try something Jared would be on her in two seconds. Look I thought this relationship meant something to you and because I can’t come home right now and you can come up here I thought you would want to clear this whole thing up?” he told her condescendingly.

She didn’t know what to say to that. She was a little speechless to say the least. Finally Jon asked her, “El are you still there?”

“Oh I’m still here I’m just trying to find the right words to answer you.” She told him as calmly as she could.

The way she answered him he knew he said something to piss her off again. “Ok now what did I say to upset you now?” he asked her annoyed.

“Jon if I listed everything that you have said tonight that has pissed me off tonight we would have to start this whole conversation over again. Now look it’s very late and I’m pissed so I’ll think about it ok? And I’ll give you my answer sometime in the next few days. But maybe I should start to do the same thing you’re doing seeing I’m missing you just as much as your missing me.” she told him.

Well that thru him for a loop. “What the hell Ellie! I just told you…” but just then he heard a knock on her bedroom door.

“Yes come in.” she said as the door open and Jared walked in, in nothing but a pair on sweat shorts on.

“Um Ellie not to intrude but I could hear you from all the way down my room. Is everything ok?” he asked her. Well Jon could hear a man’s voice in her room. And she could hear him yelling her name thru the phone.

“Everything is fine Jared it’s just Jon on the phone so don’t worry I’ll try to keep it down ok. If for some reason I wake Jimmy would you take care of him for me until I get off the phone?” she asked him.

“Sure no problem you try and have a good night.” He told her as she wished him the same.

Now she had to see if she could calm the raving lunatic screaming on the other end of the phone. “Jon, Jon stop shouting will you.” She told him trying not to yell.

“Who the fuck was that!” he wanted to know.

“That was Jared he heard me yelling and wanted to know why I was yelling and came in here so I wouldn’t wake Jimmy up.” She told him annoyed.

“Well fine but what the hell is he doing in our bedroom this late at night!” he wanted to know livid.

“Oh my God! He’s living here and staying in the room next to Jimmy’s you Twit. You would have known this if you were ever home or at the studio or if that girl ever gave you your messages to call me. I was trying to call you and tell you this when I got that fucking message Jon. It kind of threw me for a loop. But right now the only guy in my life that I give two shits about is Jimmy and his safety. So you can get your mind out of the gutter. Now I’m going back to sleep because I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow so if you don’t mind you can call me back at a decent hour.” She told him and hung up.

Again Jon just looked at the phone and this time he threw it but it didn’t go far because of the bulky base. Jon decided it was too late to go out so he decided to just go to bed too. He was just too tired to deal with anything else tonight.

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They were sitting at the console as Jon was just staring at it and Richie could tell he was just not into doing anything today. The other guys were still watching Richie close because of the remarks he made last night. Finally it was getting to Richie as he was trying to put some notes to this one lyric and he just couldn’t seem to get it right as Jon was yelling at him that it was wrong. The other guys were looking at each other trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with him. Finally Derek called a time out and told them to take a break and go get something to eat and to chill out. The guys decide of course to go to the Blue Lagoon for lunch but Jon didn’t want to go he just thought he would order his lunch in. Richie told them that he would join him so he could find out what was going on and that he would give them a report later.

“Ok Kidd the others are gone so talk to me. What happened when you called Ellie last night?” he asked curiously.

Jon just stopped everything he was doing and turned around to face him. “Yeah well she wasn’t too happy with me last night. She’s convinced that I’m cheating on her.” He told his best friend.

“Ouch. Why?” Richie asked him.

“Well that Bitch of a receptionist told her that I’m constantly at the strip club and that the strippers are glued to our hips. And that’s basically why we’re not at the apartment to answer the phone. So I’m sure being home her little mind is going in over load at the moment.” Jon said pissed.

“Ok I’m going to let that one go for a minute (Jon just gave him a look) but you are at the club almost as much as we are and you are fooling with one of the strippers so aren’t you lying to her Jon? I mean I love ya brother but you are being a jackass and shouldn’t be pissed at her for being mad at you.” Richie told him just as mad at if for being mad at Ellie.

“I’m not mad at Ellie I’m mad at myself ok!” he told Richie.

“Why are you mad at yourself for getting caught?” he threw at him.

“What the hell is wrong with you? You know how much I love her. But you know how bad it gets here without her. So I’m mostly flirting with these girls and I’m not really doing anything wrong you guys said you agreed. I wouldn’t leave Ellie for any of them. They don’t mean anything to me. And I did ask her to come here so I can talk to her face to face and tell her everything but she won’t come.” He told Richie as he rubbed his face.

“Wait what do you mean she won’t come? Doesn’t she want to clear this matter up?” Richie asked a little surprised by that.

Pushing back his hair, “She doesn’t want to leave Jimmy because of my Mother even thou she knows he would be safe with your parents and the security company that’s watching him. She thinks that if she’s there well I just think it’s a mother thing that’s all. Or she could be that pissed at me and she’s making excuses. I don’t know.” He told him looking really tired. “But I just want to tell her to her face you know so I can see her expression not over the damn phone.” He said exasperated.

“Jon I get that and I’m sure she does too but right now she just needs to calm down and realize what you’re going thru that’s all. She loves you so much. You know when you were going thru that crap with the stimulants she told me just how much she loved you and when Tico had to take you down because he thought you were going to hit me and maybe even her Ellie blew a gasket. And told everyone that she knew that you would never in a million years hurt her even thou we told her that under the stimulants we weren’t sure we could trust you too.” He explained to him confidently.

Jon just looked at him and couldn’t believe that Ellie actually had that much confidence in him. “She really said that?” he asked him.

“Yeah she did and never left your side when you were out cold either.” He told Jon who was now feeling a little guilty that he ever doubted her.

“Ah Rich I feel like a creep.” He told him sitting there not knowing what to do now.

“Well I’m going to tell you what to do. First you’re not going to say a damn thing about anything we do at The Blue Lagoon got it? All you do is watch the girls and go back to the apartment and jerk off. I know you only goof around with them but you tell her that you’re getting lap dances then blow jobs afterwards and she’ll drop you so hard it will make your head spin. Girls consider that sex just as much if you jump in bed with them. At least my High School girlfriend did when she caught me with the cheer leader one night. Ugly scene. Anyway they say they want you to tell them but actually they don’t so don’t do it!” he stress to him.

“But if I don’t she’ll never trust me again Rich. And if I tell her this was my first time falling she just may forgive me.” Jon said hopefully.

“Jon are you nuts! She’s going to know that you’re lying! She’s not stupid. You’ve done it to other girlfriends and deep down she knows you’re doing it to her. And now with this innocent act it will just confirm it for her. No you have to come at it differently. We didn’t try to shut down Doc and those damn girls for nothing.” Richie told him heatedly.

“God your right Rich I don’t know what I was thinking. Besides It’s not like I was fucking any of them right?” Jon told him.

“Right you have to smart about this. And don’t worry we’ll back you up.” Rich told him.

“Yeah well I already tried that one and she told me that you guys would lie for me so that’s out the window. But thanks away.” He told him.

“Oh well yeah I guess she’s right on that one. Oh by the way I need to confess something to you.” Rich said to him and hoped he would take it with a grain of salt.

Jon just looked at him carefully trying to figure out what he wanted to confess to him. “Ok Rich what it is?”

“Well you might as well hear it from me before you hear it from one of the guys. Only because they are um not understanding the whole situation.” He told him.

“Rich just tell me ok” Jon told him getting antsy now.

“Ok It goes back to when you were under the damn stimulants and Ellie and I were trying to help you and well we were pretty close and that’s when you first accused us of cheating on you.” He told him.

“Yeah she told me that and balled me out for it so go on.” He said coolly.

“Ok well the guys noticed too and made some off handed comments which I just ignored but then last night they really came down on me for me about Ellie.” He told him trying not to look at him.

“What kind of comments Rich?” he asked him trying to stay calm.

“Well when you didn’t come back to the club with us the girls were asking why so Alec told them why and well of course he made a dumbass joke and the girls were laughing and then were saying nasty things about Ellie and why she wasn’t here taking care of you so I couldn’t take it anymore and jumped in and told them what a wonderful woman she is and kinda went with it and how much she loves you and then Tico told me to quiet down and if they should worry about me and Ellie and if I have to talk to them about it before I speak to you. Now I want you to know I like her as a friend Jon nothing more. She’s my best friend’s girl and that’s it. I would never do that again to you in fact I didn’t do that to you the first time you know that Diane wasn’t in love with you. You were with her but she wasn’t with you she was just riding you’re coat tails. She would have never gone after me if she was…”

“Rich! It’s ok I know we already sorted everything out with Diane ok? So chill we promised to forget that. And as for Ellie I already told you Thank you for being there for her during that time. Rich you’re my best friend and if she feels that she can go to you and talk to you if she can’t talk to me then I’m thankful for that I really am. I know she’s not in love with you but I do know she trusts you and loves you like a brother like I do. It’s you then the rest of the guys she loves all you guys and I’m so grateful for that. And what’s even better is that you guys love her too. And Jimmy has four of the best Uncles there are on this planet. I know I drive you guy’s crazy at times but I wouldn’t trade any of you in for anything.” Jon told him.

“Yeah well we feel the same way Jon. And thanks for not punching me. The way the guys were acting I really thought you were going to go ballistic on me.” Richie said in relief.

“Nah I guess I’m growing up or I’m just so in love with her and know her I’m just confident.” He told him.

“Well then that’s what you need to tell her Jon. Look we have a weekend coming up just go to Desmond and Derek and tell them that you have an emergency at home that you need to take care of. I’m sure they’ll understand.” Richie told him.

Jon thought about it and smiled. “Yeah I will Thanks Rich.”